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Happy Valentine's Day!

2012-02-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

Greetings all! How's February coming on? I am very glad to say that with every step I take, I feel the bare hands of God shaping me from within. It's Valentine's Day tomorrow. Oh gosh It's been a year already! My last Valentine's Day was the most beautiful day I ever had in my whole life! First love is a legend indeed. Hopefully, this year it would be something special too without him, though the feeling woudn't be the same, not in a million years :(

Now, here's a random video I came across via my big lovable bro, Schoffal Charles. His message is : Valentine's Day is not cool, so don't try to be cool! hahaha! You'll get the whole thing of Valentine's Dy tangled up and at the end of the day, its still an ordinary day. Funny enough, the video title is Valentine's Day Sucks. This video is so epic I laughed a lot;

My point of view? I don't hate Valentine's Day, in fact, I treasure it like all the other events. After all, Valentine's day make second most popular card sending day after Christmas! There are many reasons why I love this particular day. It's history is very mysterious and had a linkage with Christianity and the ancient Roman rituals. Living in the 21st century makes me realize that the true meaning behind Valentine's Day is fading away, becoming more and more translucent like a ghost o.O.

I grew up knowing nothing about this historical day except the widely-known tradition of giving and receiving from your significant other. That's where I learn to love roses. But is there more to Valentine's Day rather than these? Instead of squeezing out your brain juice on what to buy on VDay, why don't just spend some time with your loved ones? Spend that EXTRA time with them. Come on I know you had that EXTRA time, if you don't have some time, make some time. Do stuffs together - that's what makes Valentine's Day so special. It's a day to celebrate love and to express our feelings directly or indirectly together. Sometimes simplicity is the best.

It's Valentine's Day from worshiphousemedia on GodTube.com.

I also wanted to praise God for our church Valentine's Sale conducted by our youth. I am very pleased that all our goods were sold !!! Kaching! $$$$$$$ hee :D benefited over 200MYR this year. All the efforts are worth it. We sold chocolate bars and sweet hampers as well as cute dolls and hearts. We also gathered all second handed dolls that our youth donated. We washed,decorated them and wrapped them up in colourful cellophane with cute tiny maroon ribbons on top. How who wouldn't want to buy them right? I mean if you go elsewhere the cheapest you would get is like 20MYR for a fuzzy Valentine's Bear. All in all, I want to thank everyone who has supported and helped us in giving this raising fund activity a success. :D

p.s : I just found out a video entitled 'Follow' via godtube.com. It is a simple inspirational video about the life of Jesus. I found it rather interesting because it reflects upon Jesus's life creatively and reminds us that God gave us technology for a purpose. We need to remind ourselves to benefit this gift of God for the soul instead of mere entertainment. Watch this video and you'll not regret it, especially if you love to tweet. I am very happy to share this video with you. Hey, it's nothing wrong with celebrating V day with your God right? :D So do head on to Schoffal's blogpost as he had pre-posted the video before I did. Once again, happy Valentine's Day!!!

Oh Wells

2012-02-12T17:02:00.001+08:00

I know, I know, I promised the Youth Leader's Camp post but it's still sitting alone in my draft. T__T pity it. I think I should hire someone to blog efficiently for me what the heck... I should've finished it before posting this one oh wells.

So, the "McDonald's is finally coming to Sandakan!" thingy - has finally came true!! I remember I was one of those not-so-interested ones. Partly because I've grown sick with them coz they're everywhere in Penang and KL. Still, it's the first time in a long time dining at McD. I think it's been 2 years! For the locals in Sandakan, I am sure it has been a long wait. The fast food outlets here are missing McD and with the grand opening of it, tada!! The main topic of food would usually be connected with McD.

Failed attempt #1

Failed attempt #2 *stupid flash edged out Beverly lol

Being the fickle-minded one, I chose the Double Cheeseburger for my dinner only to change it to Filet-O-Fish at the end. I am attached to Filet-O-Fish since my childhood years. Can't say why, it got stuck with me for good. Anyway, finding cheap food in Sandakan is not quite easy. With the growing population rate and modernization in Sandakan, McD has become the second outlet to open in Sabah succeeding after the one in Kota Kinabalu. It's economical and I suppose many could afford.

Varrelene and I - don't worry, she's shedding tears of joy awwwww!

Jill and Beverly.

I feel guilty blogging about this *heads down* We left all our responsibilities as a student at home and let lose + LOLing the whole night from 8.30 p.m- 10.00p.m. I am so dead the next day. I had a serious case of insufficient body rest with dark eye circles. That's the girl I am, only pursuing the joy of fun. Bad girl. Bad bad girl. But imagine getting a call from your friend "Hey do you wanna have dinner with us at MacDonald's??..." --- ooooohh I so can't reject it, let alone think before answer. Beverly's cousin, Jill bought us dinner and covered our expenses for the night. You rock Jill! I remember my head spinning like the whole universe is falling on me but I gathered up my remaining strength to enjoy. What a life!

Why the heck did I chose a hot drink at night =.=

Okay this is the joke of the day. Don't hate me for this haha, Beverly said I look like I was holding up the middle finger instead of a french fry.Well, I look perfectly retarded enough aite?!!! Tease me more, hopefully I'll be straight soon :P

This year is considered stressful for me and my friends, so embracing this moment to share and laugh together is priceless! Besides serving in Church ministry, being with one another brights up my gloomy days. How about you? I don't care how much time I wasted, but when people say laughter is the best medicine, then laughter is the best medicine *happy grin. It's a cheap medicine too, you can get them FOC, preferably from REAL FRIENDS.

Okay another joke - Varrelene just drove thru Beverly and I lol. Lame.

At the fun fair, I was extremely exhausted and I think I had a migraine seriously. Still, I managed to play the TAGADA and from there, the headache increased. Oh great I wish I could see some stars spinning around my head, too bad it only happens in the TV. Oh and the smile is a fake coz I am tired :P.

Laughing - Beverly tripped and almost fell muahahaha *evil laugh.

We played lots of games and won 2 little angry bird key chains and a beautiful mini photo frame. Not so bad ehh?

hmmm....I sincerely think that is all. Haven't had much sleep these days and the pressure is double time. Need a miracle!!! Help me pray for it :D Catch you later! Peace out.

Light up

2012-02-07T17:40:00.002+08:00

Tanjung Aru Beach, Kota Kinabalu. This was earlier this year, with my uncle's family. I didn't communicate much since I don't know most of them. Naturally, I cornered myself under a shady tree and meditated a prayer or two. Looking at the beautiful horizon, makes me feel closer to God. At that point, the point where a new year is taking it's place in my circle of life, it scares me. What if this year would be the worst year of my entire life? What if I can't catch up with what I strive for all these years? What if someone tells me he loves me again? What if I stumble in faith again? What if I don't have the enough potential to be what I wanted to be? What if I am not beautiful enough? What if I am not smart enough?

Lies. Lies of the world. No more slacking dear...no more.

Thank God too, for the camera Jez left in my hands. I swear, with this technology in my hands, I am super active *click click -smile-

I target kids and always kids - weird but true.

Till today, I had no idea what these are called. Can someone please name them for me? PLeaseee? please please plllease??? They are so pretty-little-things. I even kept one as a sign of friendship between Beverly and I. Aren't we cute? hahaha...

back to shooting kids

For some reason, they make me happy. It's that sense of cheerfulness and happiness that fills my heart when I'm with them, talking or not. These kids don't talk to me. They just stare and smile. and that? that already warms my heart. I feel like a mother already =.=

The beach is a perfect spot to suck in all the air and enjoy being with yourself. Sometimes. that's the element that is missing from our lives. The chance to appreciate God, the chance to be emo with God, the chance to reflect and be thankful, the chance to recharge our spirituality. The chance to be alone. How often does that happen now?

Run, run from the world. If only I can do that....I felt like I am just there siting like a dummy staring at nothing. What has happened to this world God?

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”

― Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sneakpeek to my coming up post;
Youth Leader's Camp 2012 :D

How does teleportation work?

2012-01-27T14:57:00.005+08:00

Good day readers! Just came back with a good spirit to share something that brought up my interest. So, has anyone ever watched Star Trek? The one starring Captain Kirk, Spock, and something something about Enterprise? Isn't it cool to travel vehicle-less like them? Hohoho this is gonna be awesome, imagine waking up everyday and not worry about getting to school, office or an event on time. What if we could go to every country on earth at any time of the day with the help of this simple method? Perhaps you're lost in the woods or trying to escape prison wth. Woudn't it be nice if you can just travel from one place to another without crossing a physical distance or if you're a prisoner, a brick wall? lol, I'm not against imprisonment though, if it's true that that person is an outlaw.

Anyway, in this modern generation, even the coolest transportation technology a.k.a cars, motorcyles, jets, aeroplanes and helicopters have it's imperfection because all of them acquires crossing physical distance, as I stated earlier plus, it also took time depending on the distance.

So what's teleportation? In the words of Dr. Bruce Goldberg, Teleportation is the process of physically relocating the body from one place to another site without touching it in anyway, or using any mechanical device. What we find in a true teleportation is that physical body dematerializes (disappears) from one location and subsequently rematerializes (reappears) in a different spot in an instant often accompanied by a "pop" sound.

When I first saw Star Trek, I always think of it as a fantasy and in other words, 'magic'. Ahh..yeah the best word when I was a kid. However, the modern science says the otherwise. I know this is like clashing with Physics lah but it's up to you to believe it or not. In my case, I think I believe it but certainly not reliable enough.

An experiment conducted by physicists, along with two European groups back in 1998 was successful in teleporting photons. They managed to read the information content of the atomic structure and sends it about 1 meter of coaxial cable and create an imitation of the photon. However, the original photon was no longer in existence. Well, that's a head start for the whole method of 'teleportation'. For scientists, this is very very complex and it may turn out to be a good idea (as in Star Trek film) or a bad idea (The Fly 1986 film, where the scientist accidentally merge with a housefly during a teleportation experiment) :O :O ;O - that's terrorizing. Truth is, I haven't watch that movie. hehe...after all, it has been filmed before my time. Before I existed. But you can imagine what happens when the experiment happens; a human fly ;O ;O that's harsh.

Picture that you step into a teleporter that is expecting only one life to be tranported. Unfortunately, a cat steps in too and you know the things with machines is they don't have brains. So instead of teleporting those two lives in there separately, it combined them into one, so once you got teleported, you'll be a human cat XD. Now you get the idea of the human fly right? geddit geddit? You can also Google about the movie's summary if you don't catch what I said. I feel pretty confused with myself anyway. Okay, I know everyone is lazy so I did it for you ;P here it is ;Plot Summary and Movie Trailer.

So back to the topic, we know that photons, a light energy particle is teleportable, but how about humans and other living things? Remember in Star Trek where James Kirk and his Enterprise crew teleported from their ship? According to http://science.howstuffworks.com, such a perilous action in reality may be fatal. The teleportation will be made, yes but it will work like a fax machine whereby a duplicate is formed, and here's the part where it happens to the original - they die. Meh. Here's a joke;

Lol, I don't want any doppelgänger living out my life!

Besides that, (from what I understood), the 'teleporting system' at present is not about moving them from one place to another, but rather it's RECREATING them in an exact duplicate at another place. Digitization enables the person's memories, emotions, hopes and dreams to recreate. Meaning to say, that person would still exist but in a new body that has been programmed. What? Die and exist? You kidding me arh? No lah...it's simply dying to your 'original self' and revive back in another form who is a replica of you lorh. Seriously I think if you're gonna transport the full human body to another destination like what the scientist did with the atomic structure, I think that's gonna take a forever considering all the structures of the human body lol. Doing that for a human seems technologically unthinkable.

Remember, the teleporting of atoms is not actually moving them, but moving their state. So do you think teleportation works safely on human? I don't know...It's easier to create a wormhole portal and step through it to another place like in the cartoons wth. Nonsense imagination but maybe, just maybe it's not impossible? How bout we make a deal, I'll kill you now and recreate you at another place, another time years later :P Be wise, don't accept it, or else you'll be dead forever. R.I.P (coz I don't know how to recreate you, only God knows)..*evil grin

Raining cats and dogs at the moment, sign off and ZZzz! bUbYE!

CNY Fullhouse, Day 2

2012-01-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

Was invited to an open house here in mile 7 yesterday. I am so frustrated of myself because I failed to ask whose house is that T____T. So until today, it remains unknown to me. Oh wells.

As I said on my previous post, I'm only interested in watching pretty lion dances on poles lol. (actually they are called 'jongs') Well, I got my wish haha! And I didn't expect it to be so soon, it took me off guard! I know lion dances are often mistaken with dragon dances, which I can't complain since I once had that mixed up too. In comparison, I prefer lion dance cause It's less complicated but artistic. Their unique movements + emotions excites me, especially the blinking eyes and super acrobatic stunts.

Lion dances are not only known for their artistic performance and entertainment. Growing up as part of a Chinese family, I have heard stories from my mum, dad, aunts, cousins, etc. that lions are regarded as a 'protector' or a guardian to drive away evil spirits. That's why the Chinese always invited this lion dance to perform at their homes during custom festivals and events such as weddings and celebrating the birth of a baby though it's always associated with CNY. Lion dances marks the start of an auspicious event and I'm sure it brings joy to everyone. right? right?

enjoying the show :)

some of those invited who I don't know.
More lion dance pics;

Awww..isn't it cute? It's staring at me o.O

Firecrackers!! It was so loud I would've have been deaf for like 2 minutes. We also brought the same type home*shhh..hahaha

I call him naughty boy. His English is very cute!

There are children everywhere. I love love love children, so I went around snapping pics of them *hohoho. Don't sue me, seriously you won't get anything anyway.

Cuteness overload! They were running like crazy here and there trying their best to avoid my camera lenses like it was trying to eat them or something. Sometimes I wonder, do I do that when I was a kid? Oh kids.

Say hello to Winnie! (I don't know if the spelling is correct )

Flash and without flash, thanks to Joyce's camera.

Got a pic with my brother, Happy CNY Shawn!

FINALLY!! I got a pic with the kid. Lol. It's been such an effort to 'steal' her shot and at last all it took was a nice invite to take a picture -.=. So much for all the wasted energy haha. I got so many pictures in my doc but looks like this will be it :) So it's in with the new, out with the old readers! Happy Chinese New Year again! pssstt! - give me ang pau ok...:P

One Direction

2012-01-26T11:41:00.002+08:00

So the story is, I am replaying this video again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again ....*out of breath.

As a matter of fact, I myself just discovered them via Youtube.T_T pity me. Who are they? Let me explain. If you're not gonna read this, just at least click play on the videos below and we'll see if you want to know more about them lol.

those two songs are my favorite so far. 'What makes you beautiful' is their first single. OK so back to the point. Who are they? They are One Direction. *duh! obviously..

One Direction are a British-Irish boy band, consisting of members Niall Horan, Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson. They finished third on the seventh series of The X Factor. Following The X Factor, the group signed a record contract with Sony Music subsidiary Syco Music. - Source

So, based on my research, Niall Horan is the ONLY Irish in the band. He's 18 years old now and plays the guitar too, which makes him even hotter wth.

This young man's name is Liam Payne. He is also 18, and at age 14, he auditioned for The X Factor 5th series but judge Simon Cowell thought he was not ready for the competition. He asked him to come back in 2 years and so he was sent home. But hey, here he is now :D!

Zayn Malik. He is born on 1993 same as Liam and Niall, but his birthday falls on 12th January which means he's officially 19 by now. He is from Bradford, UK and has Pakistani accent. No wonder the look :)

Harry Styles is the youngest in the group, with 17 years of age. Harry was the lead singer for the band White Eskimo before making an appearance in The X Factor.

So if Harry's the youngest, Lious Tomlinson is the oldest. He is 20 years old and is from south Yorkshire, UK.

Okay, so this is hilarious. Look at Harry o.O.

This band was formed with the help and suggestion of guest judge Nicole Scherzinger (whom I'm sure you're familiar with). The five of them applied as solo candidates for The X Factor but somehow got rejected as a soloist. The judges thought that they were to 'good' to let go, so Simon Cowell formed them as a group, tada!! One Direction band is born! I am so happy that Simon made this decision. I must say, these are one bunch of handsome lads!
P.S - they also released a book; One Direction: Forever Young ( Our Official X Factor Story)
P.S.S- check out their offcial website here

Sign off now, thanks for reading!

CNY Fullhouse, Day 1

2012-01-24T19:10:00.000+08:00

Hi readers! I'm literally exhausted right now. Slept at almost dawn last night with all the Mahjong players. One thing leads to another and blablabla, finally it's past 3a.m. I mean, come on it's The first day of Chinese New Year! I'm very proud to say that this year's CNY has major contrast from my 'usual' way of celebrating it. First things first - CNY is the longest holiday in China, which lasts up to 15 days whereas in urban areas it lasted only 7 days. Being 50% Chinese by no doubts, CNY thrills me in terms of tradition and customs. Trust me, there are many do's and don'ts on this special occasion that I am happy to 'follow'.

When I was a kid, I wonder why CNY never falls on the same date each year. Turns out it is based on lunar and solar movements, hence the vary dates, usually on January or February. I also miss those times where my mum would tell me stories and intrigue me with those Chinese beliefs.

kiddos

Ok my head is temporarily jam now because THERE'S LION DANCE IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE WITH EXTREMELY LOUD CYMBALS AND DRUMS and here I am still trying to blog my head off lol. I peeked out my window and guess what? The lion dance was performed by non-chinese ahahhaa.. If I'm not mistaken, they are from Bugis origin. Not bad ehh? After all, the show must go on..=.=. Anyway, screw the noise, I am only 100% interested to watch lion dances if they had those pillars thingy. Another thing is, the lion must be very pretty, like very very pretty.

Front, living room

Back, extra outdoor dining room.

As I said earlier, this year I celebrate CNY differently. Factors are -

1. I commemorate my CNY in Sandakan (SDK), Sabah which is obviously not my hometown, not even close.

2. I spend my time with my uncle's family who came all the way from K.K, as a result of this, there are around 5 families staying in our house! That's where I came up with my post title :)

3. I don't know more than half of them, which makes situation more awkward than I imagined it would be.

4. I am FAR apart from my primary family, most specifically my dad's side who are pure Chinese that celebrates CNY the old fashioned way.

5. We visited the monkeys to celebrate with them XD

Trip to Labuk Bay

Shortly after our visit to Auntie whose-name-I-don't-know house, we went to Labuk Bay! Again. I took a trip there a gazillion times but I still love every moment of it! Partly because it's a different atmosphere this time. The bad news is, it started raining on our way. The good news is we're on our way. So, no regrets! Borneo's indigenous proboscis monkeys came out on their feeding time as usual despite the rain, so I consider this trip a success lol. Before that, we stop by at Samjaya food court for lunch. I had Nasi Pataya and it's soooo good I could almost taste it again now haha! Talking bout food, one thing you should know about my CNY habit is I am attached to mandarin oranges, especially seedless ones. I would be famously considered abnormal if I resist them.

When I am younger, I despise mandarin oranges because of their seeds lol. So immature. I once had no idea how everyone 'move' the seeds in their tongue and spit it out so simply. Of course you guys know how funny the taste is when you accidentally bite the seeds. Better not to elaborate more on that, my tongue is already feeling like orange seeds lol. But hey, maybe this is prove of the old saying that goes something like 'if you hate them, one day you'll like them.' =.= Scarryy.

This kid has a unique name; Corinthians, as from the Bible. We call him Cory for short.

We conquered the whole place. This is what happens when you came with full, 5 cars o.O!

lookin good mate...;) :O

Glory and Tasha

pre-feeding time.

while waiting, as usual, girls camwhore!

Hornbill, it's rare to get a shot so close up. They are one of the 'bonus' in the Proboscis monkey sanctuary. Sometimes, (if you're lucky) you can get to see the Silvered Leaf Monkey too. They are special because they could be found only in Peninsular Malaysia, Borneo and Sumatra. Plus, their offspring has yellow hair in the early stages unlike their parents who has grayish, black hair. Now that's awesome! Unfortunately, the weather is damp, and this time they didn't make an appearance. T___________T

4.30 p.m, platform B, feeding time has begun :D
We went home before 5. At home, it's another story. More than I can spill.

Cory's B'day

Now thats one lucky kid with his cake and presents. His b'day falls on Chinese New Year! Happy b'day Cory!

So that pretty much sums up my 1st day of CNY 2012. Different, but I'm happy and contended. Happy Chinese New Year everyone! Gong Xi Fa Cai!! I really need to go now, thanks for reading!

Be more vigilant

2012-01-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!! I'm so excited! I got a new laptop and I assume it's my PMR result gift haha. It's maroon in colour and I thank God for blessing me with this technology. So the pictures of me would be taken by my new Acer Crystal Eye Webcam while webcam-ing with Beverly :D

One of my resolutions this year is to blog frequently and be more active in almost everything! From academic to sports, to social life and family bondage, I'mma jump right in this time. No excuses. I wonder what's going on in all the Form 4 students' mind right now. I confess - its reaaaly tough being in Form 4. One of the dominant reasons are the subjects, they are obviously super new to a normal-rate human brain like me, not to mention I'm in a 'good' class which means a tight competition throughout the year. Now I really hate studies..T___T. But look on the bright side, oh never mind....

Being alert at all times is one thing in gaining control of a new chapter in life. How do I do that? Well I don't really know how, but it just happens. So for me, being alert begins from the heart. Set a well defined goal you want to achieve. Motivate yourself apart from the motivation from others, for example, tell your inner self that you want to be a top student or you want to finish your job in time, efficiently. That way, your mind would have extra strength to be more observant during learning periods simply because you have planted the determination in you. Next, break those huge persistence into smaller bits so that your goals could run systematically and productive.

It's a giant step journeying from lower secondary to upper secondary in such a short amount of time. I'm in Science stream which opens up more possibilities of dropping dead on the spot while learning lol. I got a lot of inspiration this year, which is a good thing. Unlike last year, my brain cells cooperated with me this time, THANK YOU BRAIN CELLS! The first week of school and already there's essays to do? 'Not a big deal' - says my brain. I owe my brain cells a lot, I should consider sleeping early and give it some love haha! My other practice in keeping myself 'doing-great' in school is preparing early. I prepare my books according to my schedule at night so to avoid the hustle in the mornings, where we could have more time to enjoy breakfast and meditate a prayer before begin our day. In class, if I am sleepy, I try to make my position 'less comfortable' by sitting at the edge (about 1/3) of the chair with a straight back (got this tip from my Physics teacher hehe..). It works pretty good for me. :D Besides, leaning backwards on your chair just indicates that your not interested in acquiring knowledge, it's not a very good impression to leave on your teachers & classmates right?

My best-loved non-tension method is to stimulate the brain. This kind of thing only works with friends,that is to have a good laugh. As simple as that, to put your mind in a pleasurable place it deserves to be. Stay focus on good things as much as you can and it will help to keep your mind awake. Physical movement is essential too. Exercise your neck from time to time to enable a better blood circulation so that oxygen gets to your brain. I exercise my hands as well if we happen to take a lot of notes. Ok let's just say I am not the type of person who shuts up the entire class, but I do try to refrain myself from talking too much during lessons. Lending my ears to the teacher in front brings benefit :) Oh, and I drink a lot too.. A LOT MORE than you think .....since I knew water contains oxygen molecules to help my brain XD

I ALSO REWARD MYSELF whenever I promised myself to complete a job. Usually, I'll go online after I complete my homeworks, or I'll read a magazine after that. You can also hang out with our friends or play some games, maybe suck a lollipop. No big things, just little happy things. This little step somehow maintains my motivation. Distractions come and go, of course. But take control. Being focused on the direction you're going eats time and may involve a lot of sacrifices along the way. Which is why I try to make myself as comfortable as possible in the learning process. I don't do this all alone, I got help from most of my friends and families. Thank God I live in this era, where we can freely surf the web about almost anything! Technologies are my bestfriend in education too and I want to take this opportunity to thank every single soul who had share, cherish, and enlightened me throughout the year. Many many thanks!!

Spiritual fuel

2012-01-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

These are my some of my most favorite worship songs.. it is simply strong, calm, and soothing that penetrates deep to the depths of my soul. So, don't be lazy...click play ;)

Planetshakers..my favorite <3

Chris Tomlin, one of the greatest Christian singer :)

Jeremy Camp, inspires me with his voice :D

I fell in love with Jesus again watching these videos..it clearly portrays God's mighty power to reach out to us even from miles away from a different time! This video below is the reason why I share with you :) Spread the blessing and joy!! Be bold!

God bless everyone!

A fresh start

2012-01-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, long time no write. Really, I despise myself for ditching you. Apparently, my mum repel technologies when she's around her kids, probably because her only chance to spend time with us are during the holidays. Thanks to my Nokia and Celcom's broadband service that charges RM18/week, I could still surf the net behind her back *muahahaha! So, after for so long, I finally got the chance to lay my hands on a laptop again! Well, I wouldn't be suprised if my blog had zero traffic. It's been unconscious for over a month. Since school reopened a few days ago, my muscles need to recharge to the heavy bags and staircases every.single.day. I can't complain, but I promised myself no more slacking this year, at least there's a determination to start with.

I'm being rude, I never even wish you guys a happy new year yet, so...HAPPY NEW YEAR!! - And God bless. Christmas reminds me of many many things in the whole wide world I usually forget. So I hope Christmas charge up your spiritual fuel for another year ahead. There's a reason to be tired, but no reason to give up. Yesterday, God did something very incredible for me, to me and through me. I just so happened to be present in the Parish Delegate Assembly (PDA) specially for youth. The calling was shallow a first, but hey..I got there and I realized it's the first ministry I'm offering to the Lord for the year 2012. All in all, there were 21 people present in the PDA. Despite the not-so-many-people-went, we felt the joy and shared our thoughts with Jesus in contribution to our diocese mission and vision. I had fun serving the Lord I miss this fulfilling feeling during the holidays. (I can't wait to share my holidays with you!) Even if there's no activity, simply offer your studies, works, joys, suffering and everything to the Lord. Well dears, have you offer anything to the Lord today?

I think that's all for this post haha. I am drop dead sleepy tonight - back to school days. See you guys soon! (I promise myself to blog more this year) - let's hope I won't break it. Happy 2012, cheers !!!! :P

Hit The Lights

2011-11-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

..is officially OUT!! yeehaa.... Finally, Selena's music video is available for view- featuring another single of her 3rd Album. I must say it's a rather unique video, although I expected more. But it's just me. Enjoy :)

Sleep under open skies

2011-11-21T01:52:00.001+08:00

Greetings everyone! So as you know, I'm a dreamer. Thousand of thoughts came rushing through my brain cells 24-7 ( even in my sleep I guess). Unfortunately, some are rather useless and some are evil, but some are quite exciting. One of the things that I like to dream about is travel. Being under 18 and all kept me on the safe side of the wall. But sometimes I wonder 'what if'' someday I went over the other side and get to travel all over the world? That would be a bonus! I just happened to stumble upon a kind of place I never thought would exist.The web are saturated with lots of travel destination, and I am somehow drawn to a nostalgic and thrillingly unique place for tour attraction. So, yeah you can say I'm promoting though I've personally never been there. It would be a dream come true if I actually went though.

'Kiboko Star Beds' as they called it, is a heavenly place imaginable to sleep in, to curl up just under the stars in the middle of wilderness. You can find those particularly at Loisaba Wilderness, Africa. It is an outstandingly beautiful place and perfect for adventure seekers (ehem, like me). Just the thought of water rippling and probably some crickets sounding late at night brought me peace of body, mind and soul. We could take our eyes off skyscrapers and find the time to meditate on God's artwork of nature around us. I admit I really need this vacation spot. Enough said.

So let's talk about accommodation. Loisaba offers authentic, extravagant African style stay you'll sure to remember. There are 3 choices;

#1. Loisaba Lodge

Loisaba Lodge nested high on the edge of the plateau, looking south towards Mount Kenya. The furnishings are all handmade and there are French windows that open onto a private deck.

#2. The House

This house is built entirely from local materials, so I would say it was built right at Loisaba, with it's exclusive architecture of stone and thatch. (wow!) This is fantastic for small groups. private and high above the grounds which also overlooks Laikipia plains towards Mount Kenya.

#3. The Cottage

The cottage is fully self-contained, with it's own staff. You can even use a custom game drive vehicle! With a homey touch to this cottage, I would definitely go there in my dreams. It would be the ultimate snow white fairytale, starring me lol wtf *it has a private swimming pool hehehe..

On the other side of the coin, Loisaba offers a long list of activities that includes;

-Game drives
-Walking (accompanied by traditional Samburu guides whose knowledge of local flora, fauna etc.)
-Horse riding
-Camel riding (that would probably takes up a whole morning)
-Fishing (never knew you can fish in the middle of a desert!)
-Rafting (that sounds ancient..)
-Quad Bikes
-Mountain biking (for those who are energetic and all)
-Lodge activities
-Cultural village visits (Masai village lifestyle)
-Spa treatments

To all animal lovers, there are sight-seeings to attend to. Time to experience wildlife with animals such as hyenas, gazelles, giraffes and various types of antelopes. There are also foxes, lions, cheetahs, African wildcats, African elephants, and so much more!

I would like to visit this part of Africa, if heaven permits - and if I have lots and LOTS of $$, that would do. So if you're planning to visit Laikipa, Kenya, do give Loisaba Wilderness a try. I would certainly love to hear some episode of your story :D Oh, and check out http://loisaba.com for more precise description of the activities and accommodation. You can simply get in touch with them via email : enquiries@loisaba.com.

P.S: it's late now, going straight to bed after this post, good night dears!
P.S.S: Going to KL in another 3 days. What a life ! :o :)

'Do Not Disturb'

2011-11-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

I had no idea what am I about to post today. Sigh. Greetings readers :) I miss mum and dad. It's 4 days since they've gone back to KL and I miss the childlike feeling when they are here. I miss the joyous moments we had. The last few days were spent entirely with them and my life had a sign that says 'DO NOT DISTURB' - yup, I am busy with mama and papa, sorry to put you guys on hold.

I took my dad to Agnes Keith's House. It's the first tour attraction in Sandakan I led them to, and I am certainly ecstatic. I visited the place myself several times. We were supposed to be shopping for some personal needs when my aunt called and -theres some twist to the story. Anyway, we ended up in Agnes Keith's House, up the hill we went.

This is the house, beautiful isn't it? I smell history in the air *wink wink
p.s : no cameras were allowed in the house, so no pictures :(

Birdbath, just outside the authentic house.

The homey English-style tea house, just a few meters away from the house. Dad decided to have a drink. Great idea, I thought. Just what I need.

In case you didn't notice, there's a lawn spread in the middle of the tea house. It provides visitors and customers with a popular game of croquet, and of course, my family won't sit still!

Mum got her shot, dad got his shot. Did they score? Nope. hahaha

this is mum, a little worn out but happy, as she's always are.

They surely had kind waiters, one of them took this particular picture for our 'family shot'. Thanks waiter! Whoever you are.

Cheese cake.....(the other half was already in Shawn's stomach lol)

okay...so this was SUPPOSED to be a Banana Split, but they ran out of bananas and we go for papaya instead. The waiter actually told us that the other table was having Watermelon Split! - And I thought papaya split was insane. Suprisingly, it has a good taste, refreshingly tasty. yum..yum..yum...

....and this is why I wanted to get married, because marriage is simply beautiful! I wonder when would be my turn. Shh..don't tell that to anyone haha *blush

Mum and dad on the bench, the last picture of them of the day.... It was cute. :O

With that, the day had ended with a pleasant memory in mind. Lights out! The sign is still on, 'Do Not Disturb'. :)

The other side of the world

2011-11-02T19:12:00.001+08:00

Good day readers :)

Yesterday was historical. I wish I could turn back time, but my mum and dad are already back in KL, probably busy with work. Many asked me "Don't you miss your parents?" "I would die without them" "How did you manage yourself?" "I can't believe you can stand it without them"....blablabla....all those kind of responses to my life story are not foreign to me now. At least, not when I have friends. Their 'being-there-for-me-all-the-time' was the medicine to my home sickness. Actually, more like 'family sickness'. Still, I am grateful for what God had laid before me.

I read this book recently and it got me thinking - about why I am here and why I am who I am today, about my past and future and most importantly, my present. Austin Gutwein had somehow 'showed up' in my life and feel me with inspiration and hope. I am starting to think that this book had landed in my hands by God's plan. Austin had 5 words for me:

'God wants to use you.'

One glimpse and it's not a big deal. One might nod their head and say "Okay." but in actuality, the "Okay" can't be fully okay unless we understand how God works. And to understand that, we need to know God. This is important so that we don't stray away from Him and put our full trust in Him. Take Your Best Shot is the title and Austin is the author co-written with Todd Hillard. Todd has 17 years of pastoral experience and has written more than 12 books. He is a freelance writer and is passionate about taking dreams and stories of others and bring them to life on the written page. You may be wondering what my parents has to do with this book. I'll get to that later ( or you have figured it all out already) After all, it's just an ordinary book, with 218 pages and words. Yet, the message it brings are eye opening, powerful and stimulating. The thing that caught my eye while browsing through the library books is it's huge caption at the back of this book that says

'You can do something BIGGER than yourself.'

Basically God had called Austin to help AIDS orphans in Zambia, Africa. How he does that? - Basketball. (I bet that caught your attention). Trust me I am puzzled at first too, but God is the author of Austin's calling. And though it seems weird and funny and somehow unworkable, God has His own ways to light up Austin's path. And that's just the exciting part of the story!! Austin is the founder of Hoops of Hope, the world's largest free-throw marathon. Participants raise awareness and funds for children who have been orphaned by HIV/AIDS by shooting free throws - how amazingly fun is that!

Mother Teresa had quoted: 'in this life we cannot do great things. we can only do small things with great love.'

And that's just that. You may not help them all, but just helping a single soul means the world to them. Even so, helping them does not mean doing something that's beyond our ability. For instance, Austin helps them by doing something he is passionate about, that is playing basketball. For 2057 shoots in a day, he raised money enough to sponsor 8 AIDS orphans in Africa, in the nation of Zambia. It's so cool he actually got to be a sponsor for a kid named Ignatius back there. It's even cooler that he actually WENT TO AFRICA with his dad and met him!

Austin with Ignatius.

p.s : If you would like to help them in anyway, you can also start by picking a child for sponsor.

Click here to sponsor a child.

Okay, so the journey got so far away I forgot to tell what inspires him in the first place. It begins with a simple, 4 minute long video that echoed through the television in their house. He was nine. She was nine too, on the other side of the world. The huge difference between them is Maggie had experienced a lifetime of tragedy. All her family members had died of AIDS, all except the only relative she had, a 73-year-old great-grandmother of hers. Besides that, she had no one else. I know my life has it's dangerous curves, but looking upon what God had blessed me with unveiled my eyes and point of view towards life. I need to appreciate myself, and in the middle of it, I realized that I could inspire others. Although my mum and dad are not under the same roof as mine, at least they still love each other and are alive. - and that alone is a gift from God. A miracle so finely done and only way I could thank God is by sharing this story, because it is indelible in my mind now. Sealed and there to spark a fire to strive for a difference.

Maggie's story had touched Austin's heart and captures mine too, and this is something I would really love to share. We all have only one life, let's take our best shot and do something bigger than ourselves. Start with looking at someone bigger than us too. The least we can do is offer them a prayer, a prayer sincerely from our hearts.

Watch Maggie's story below: be careful though, she might touch your heart and change your lives forever.

You have one life.

Do something.

Sentosa Island @ Singapore

2011-10-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! I had promised myself to post about my short hours in Sentosa Island, located in Singapore. It took centuries for me to put it up together now, since I did not remember much. This was last years' bits and pieces. Thought I'd better put it up here to share. But as usual, I let pictures do the speaking. Enjoy!

Daddy brought us to this part of Sentosa Island, as our first stop.

The Palawan Beach suspension bridge. It connects beach-goers to the Southernmost of Continental Asia :) Took a moment to realize that!

Didn't manage to enjoy the 'Song of the sea' though. Time is running out. Next time we're heading there, it's gonna be a stay-in at the resorts!! Let's hope so.

Banana split anyone? Maybe some ginger bread cookies, cupcakes and candies? Oh, I love the icings!

This is Universal Studios, Singapore's Hollywood movie theme park. Since it was just a short visit just to cuci mata and 'check-it-out' I found myself not that upset knowing we didn't get in the theme park. I swallowed, telling myself that we're gonna come back to this place, someday. Better store that excitement :O

Before this. we went on a Skyline LUGE. It was amazing! I can see everything from up there! I have a picture of it, but it was somewhere in my drawer..going to get for it.....
.........

BACK!
turns out it was not there. I had no idea where it went but I'll get to that later. ~~So I'm gonna steal somebody's picture form Google =.=.~~ It's like a bunch of moving park benches that brings you up a hill like cable cars. Cool outdoor experience.

So uh, it's pretty much like that :)

No visit to Sentosa is complete without meeting its most famous, 37-metre tall resident, The Merlion. IT WAS HUGEEEE!!

Night in the streets was just GREAT. They sure show some spirit of Christmas. Decorations we everywhere. We walked down the streets and once, I spotted a double decker bus with no rooftop with my very own eyes. Realizing this was not TV, I tried hard not to scream like I've never saw one before and that's a hard thing to do (because I never saw one before). Even a bus thrills me in Singapore. Sweet.

- www.sentosa.com

#LOL

2011-10-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

Need to release some stress? Christian comedians with their silly jokes - My recent source of laughter XD. There are three of them, and they went on a rockshow comedy tour together this year. Check them out!

#1.Tim Hawkins,my favourite <3 <3 !! (timhawkins.net)

Tim Hawkins is a Christian comedian, songwriter, and singer, best known for parodying popular songs, such as Carrie Underwood's "Jesus Take The Wheel" and "The Candy Man" stand-up material based on marriage, homeschooling and parenting.

#2. Bob Smiley (bobsmiley.com)

Bob Smiley is an American Christian comedian and author who lives near Houston, Texas. He has been a stand-up comedian for more than 10 years all over the United States, Canada, England, Wales and East Kentucky.

#3.John Branyan (johnbranyan.com)

John Branyan is a Christian comedian who specializes in family-oriented material. He is an improv player with Think Tank, has participated in Jay Leno’s National Comedy Competition, and has toured with Chonda Pierce. He has written for the American Comedy Network and is a head writer for Clip-Wit radio humor service.

Here's the sneak peek of their rockshow comedy tour, you can check it out if you want :)

Tim's really got a thing for animal noises...XD

Three of them are married and they sure had some hilarious tales to tell.

I've got another one I'd like to add from Tim...;

This one's got me laughing till I almost fell from my chair! I died afterwards XD.

The 'scary' bedtime prayer :

Now I lay me down to sleep

I pray the lord my soul to keep

If I should die before I wake

I pray the Lord my soul to take.

Hahaha. Head down to http://www.rockshowcomedy.com/ for more information and funny, clean comedies with edge. :) !! Hope you enjoyed!

Stardust - a charming originality

2011-10-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

*Clap hands* I've finally journeyed myself to the state library for the first in 3 years I lived in Sandakan. - and that would never be accomplished without the company of my two fellow friends, Beverly and Clare. We've been to school in the morning, with a single purpose -- to return our form 3 textbooks to the school SPBT. Oh joy. No more heavy bags! No more heavy bags!

With bags as light as a feather, I feel drawn to the library in town. which, I thought is a bit deserted from the outskirts of town itself. I had no idea how many minutes it ate from our time. Lucky for us, we had a quite pleasant weather and lunch was a pleasant one too, for I got myself my favourite, Spaghetti. It took away 11 MYR from me but it was worth it. After we contended ourselves with food, we took the bus to town and from there, walked to the library. It makes me happy, to be in an air-conditioned place with huge glasses that reflects the sea outside. A good place, I thought although it is rather peculiar to see very little people are in there, students make up most of the space though. And the books, they are magnificent. I can't help but wonder why they did not arrange the books in a sequel form. It's a shame really, to find a book you are most interested in reading, but had no clue as to where the next sequel to it lies. All the good series books seemed to be scattered among the huge library with absolutely thin hope of finding them. I bumped into my schoolmates there, Lucy, Ivy and Jennifer. Jen suggested that we asked Ivy about the books' whereabouts in the place - she told me that some books had no sequel to it. Great.

BTW, I've been up to Stardust novel by Neil Gaiman recently. I had just finished reading them today. Yes, this is how 'left-behind' I would become. This movie was released years earlier, obviously. But still, it was a total different matter to read and to watch. In my opinion, reading is better, as you can picture the scene yourself and build up those characters in your own fantasy world. Watching is like an instant entertainment, where you get to sit there for a couple of hours and be done with the story, but it's both a good combination. A book full of poetry and marvels...a beautiful, memorable work, as Milwaukee Journal Sentinel would describe it. I personally think that it was, indeed a good book. There times where I don't understand the message of the writer though. but that's just because my brain is not yet upgraded to classical English words by Neil Gaiman. lol. All in all, it brings me into a world I've never been before, make me juggled the characters in my head with awe and kept me awake most of the nights. Hahaha! This 333-paged book does wonders! It is a good book to absorb oneself in at rainy days with cookies and hot chocolate by your side. :D Going Crazy for STARDUST!!

STARDUST

Young Tristran Thorn will do anything to win the cold heart of beautiful Victoria Forrester, even fetching her the star they watched fall from the night sky together. To do so, he must enter the unexplored lands of magic and danger - Faerie. It lies on the other side of the ancient wall that gives their tiny village its name. Beyong that old stone barrier, Tristran got himself into a strange world where strange things could happen to a determined lad like him, chasing his heart's desire...and where, nothing, not even a fallen star, is what he imagined.

At 4 p.m, I am out of the library with two books - first = TORMENT by Lauren Kate. So, the bad news is that TORMENT is actually a book preceded by the first book, FALLEN. I like TORMENT, it stirs up the interest in me to further my reading, unfortunately I can't do that without the FALLEN, right?. Gotta know how 'things' came about at first first. Grrr...The library is trying my patience but I had my mistake in choosing the right book in the first place. So, yea. As idiotic as I could be, I searched for the plot of FALLEN which were there to increase my craving on these books by Lauren Kate. I sure hope I could be swept away by the stories in no time. If only I got hold of the book. hm....

FALLEN
Some Angels are Destined to Fall. There’s something achingly familiar about Daniel Grigori. Mysterious and aloof, he captures Luce Price’s attention from the moment she sees him on her first day at the Sword & Cross boarding school in sultry Savannah, Georgia. He’s the one bright spot in a place where cell phones are forbidden, the other students are all screw-ups, and security cameras watch every move.

Even though Daniel wants nothing to do with Luce–and goes out of his way to make that very clear–she can’t let it go. Drawn to him like a moth to a flame, she has to find out what Daniel is so desperate to keep secret . . . even if it kills her.

the other book is THE SUMMONING by Kelley Armstrong. I had good news for this book as it is the first book that was followed by THE AWAKENING. It thrilled me so much as I read on the covers behind THE SUMMONING:

THE SUMMONING

'Chloe Saunders sees dead people. Yes, like in the films. The problem is, in real life saying you see ghosts gets you a one-way ticket to the psych ward. And at 15, all Chloe wants to do is fit in at school and maybe get a boy to notice her. But when a particularly violent ghost haunts her, she gets noticed for all the wrong reasons. Her seemingly crazed behaviour earns her a trip to Lyle House, a centre for disturbed teens.

At first Chloe is determined to keep her head down. But then her room mate disappears after confessing she has a poltergeist, and some of the other patients also seem to be manifesting paranormal behaviour. Could that be a coincidence? Or is Lyle House not quite what it seems…? Chloe realizes that if she doesn’t uncover the truth, she could be destined for a lifetime in a psychiatric hospital. Or could her fate be even worse…? Can she trust her fellow students, and does she dare reveal her dark secret?'

"You'll be desperate for a sequel." - Melissa Marr, author of the New York Times bestseller WICKED LOVELY.

I agree 100% with Melissa though. Thought of talking to my mum into buying the sequel. And this is how mad I can go when I am so into novels. Perhaps the exams that rushed through my veins that ended weeks ago washed away my madness for novels. Temporarily. I can't even remember when was the last time I touched a novel. Thank God everything was over now, and I can finally enjoy my reading without a voice in my head that always bugs me to study.

Fresh news!! Called my mum seconds ago and she said she'll do all her best to find Sidney Sheldon's books. I am so hyper! Beverly wanted to read some of his works too, for I can't deny that he had the best of the unexpected. He was labelled as 'master of the unexpected' - and I couldn't agree more. Shall be meeting my mum within two weeks! Even if she fails to buy me some books, her being here with me is the greatest gift on Earth. Signing of now readings. Chao :)

PMR Wrap Up

2011-10-10T23:34:00.003+08:00

Hello readers! How are you? I'm back!! Gosh how I miss blogging. I hate the regretful feeling when I want to blog before the PMR exam is over. Well cheers to reality it's all OVER now. I can finally sit back and goyang kaki lol. Tomorrow my classmates are planning another outing in town. I had no idea what I want to do there, but friends are the best company. Besides, mum and dad are coming to Sandakan on the 26th and I'm so excited!!! So basically, I need to buy some stuffs to make their stay here a welcomed one. Even the shower foam in the bathroom has run out :O These days the weather is a bit damp, don't you think?

Anyway, I can't wait to celebrate my first confirmation in church with them! It's also the first time dad's coming to visit, I sure hope there will be no last minute changes. My confirmation is on the 29th of October which is just a few days after my parent's arrival. I had my white dress ready months earlier and mum agreed to buy me a pair of white socks :D. Oh, in case you don't know what is confirmation, in Catholic Church, it is one of the 7 sacraments that we receive. Confirmation is special because it is the stage where we are empowered and strengthened by the Holy Spirit. In my 15 years of life, I had received the sacrament of Baptism when I was barely one year old and Holy Communion 3 years back. I am so on the top I can't describe my feeling! It's time to take my relationship with Jesus to the next level and experience His love and service deeper. I strongly believe by 'God can do the impossible' and miracles do happen!!

10/10/11 - 3.55 p.m sharp - Would be one of the historical day in my life as it marks the last day of the PMR exam for me. Of all the 7 subjects I took, I hope I could pass with flying colours. Yet, it's dangerous to put my hopes too high on it. I'm afraid of it's outcome. Best solution? make a 'don't-know don't-care' face and live the liberty walk life while it lasts. Cuz I know, in a few months' time, there will be a more serious study, a stiffer mountain to climb.

Towards PMR, I learned a few lessons;

#1 - Idling most of the time throughout the year will have to make you pay your debts when the exam is at the eleventh hour. - and that is not beautiful at all.

#2 - Never enslave yourself to all source of temptation (e.g the Internet - my no.1 enemy, and sleep - my no.2 enemy lol). They are not so bad to deserve the title 'enemy' but when it comes to studies, it needs a little label for me to filter the good from the bad.

#3. - Extensive reading but less exercises on the particular subject will be less effective if you want to retain it in your memory. My memory is like a tiny mustard seed when it comes to educational 'things' to remember. Hence, the exercises haha.

#4. Do past year questions from past year PMR question books on sale. Should've pay more attention to that. It helps me to be familiar with the type, format and even the level of the questions. I only manage to do Geography and Math :O

#5. Do model test questions 2-3 months before the exact PMR comes around. (Some questions are quite the same as the actual PMR :D) *wink wink

#6. Eat more, sleep less. Need nutrients from food, not junk food..LOL I don't know how much junk I had stuffed into my body throughout the year. Luckily My body weight is still maintained.

#7. Don't take the exams too lightly!! Sigh.

#8. Sleep early (duh! =.=)

And that's what I SHOULD have been up to this year. Without a doubt this year has to be the most busiest year of my life. Too much new things to try on, new surroundings to fit it. new time table, new way of self management, and the list goes on and on. Hey, being a teen is only ONCE in our lifetime so I need to embrace it no matter how bad it may turn out to be. Sometimes our past is what makes us who we are today, right? I had too much already, but life don't just stop when you wanted it too. Imagine if only I got a time machine, I want to turn back time back to 1st of January 2011 XD. Maybe the road would be a steadier one. Wrong turns would be avoided and wise decisions would be made. If only...if only...haizz..My BM paper? Not so good. English and Geography is better. Science and Sejarah 50-50...M3 is ok la but my Perdagangan & Keusahawanan is on dangerous line Arghhh!!!!!

I can't see my destination yet, though I know where it is. Despite that, the journey is more important and is irreversible once the first step is taken. Only lessons could be learned, yet time does not have a rewind button to press. How absurd if everyone has a chance to rewind - everyone would succeed -everyone succeed - no one fail - if no one fail, so there's no true winner. Now that's what I call a DULL, MEANINGLESS, UNFAIR life. Maybe next time I'll have a fairy godmother and she'll make a more discipline child. Bibbidi bobbidi boo! Straight A's every year hahaha! Somehow,dreams should be kept in dreams...cause they would never come true, maybe they will, but reality works in a different way. What I got in my hands is hope. It is the same hope since the first step I took into this world. A world of competition, a world of battlefield.

Orange

2011-10-08T01:42:00.002+08:00

Good day folks :D Today I am up to nothing. Well, more like sleeping 12 hours a day, eat and then back to sleep again. So, one thing you may be thinking about is why on earth I am wasting my time on PMR exam week. Tell you what, I'm tired of revising. Perhaps one of the reason why I am short-sighted now is due to extensive reading o.O. I can't confirm my statement but I assure you that it's no good. Hence, the 'onlining' :D

So how many billion people out there that actually likes orange? I like orange. Well, just the fruit. Orangey lipstick, flowers, and all sorts of other 'things'? - Ehh..not so much. According to crystal-cure.com , Orange is referred as a 'healing' colour and also a lucky colour. Despite the fact that I dislike orange in many many things, I'm gonna agree when it says that orange helps with relief from things becoming too serious. Take a sunset for example, none other than mother nature. It is altogether calming and spices things up when you feel time is dragging. On the other side of the coin, orange symbolizes happiness and joy. I don't know what aliens would think of this colour, but orange is also known as the most flamboyant colour on our planet. No wonder when I paint something orange (take a sunset scene again for example), I feel absolute relax and found it suprisingly fun.

Ok, so you guys may be wondering what got into me that's making me so into colours. Truth is, I don't know. I think I've layed my eyes on too much orangey stuff, e.g : my orange blouse. I wore it like 3 times in a week that is so lame. But it wasn't like I'm wearing it out or anything, I'm just wearing it at home. If you're my closet, you'll know that I only got 1 piece of orange cloth. lol. Most of my friends also agreed that orange is the last on the list of fav colours they would pick. As for me, I favor purple/violet. In the words of crystal-cure.com and precisionintermedia.com , purple is referred to as a good judgement and spiritual fulfillment colour. Besides, it also signifies wealth, prosperity and those are portrayed in robes of kings and queens. In both websites, they support the idea that purple is largely young adolescence girls' favorite. When you want some good imagination, 'apply' some purple in your life. It helps with peace of mind and some meditation. I still remember that the first time I 'fell-in-love' with purple, it's also the time I 'hated' orange. :P I can't recall the exact reasons why though.

I did a little more research found an interesting fact:

Although it was used to describe the fruit, orange wasn’t used to describe color until the middle of the 16^th century. Experts argue that because very few things in the natural world are orange, there was no need for the word. Instead, writers substituted other terms, such as gold or amber.

Whootz! That would explain why I had such hard times figuring out what things in the world is orange. Well, all in all, I think that all colours has it own uniqueness. In fact, of the several websites I clicked on, each of them sees and describes the colours in different ways. Different people sees those colours differently. So do I. So even though I like purple to the maximum levels, I still treasure much that orange existed in our lives, with that, I thank God for created it to make this life a rich one. Maybe as time flies, my perspective view of my fav colours won't be the same. Who knows right?

Embrace your awesomeness

2011-09-22T18:00:00.001+08:00

You know, the word 'awesome' itself is just awesome!! Have you ever feel the rush of trying something new? How about a forbidden new thing? Yeah it's a crime if you look it that way XD. This is the first in a long time since I go on an 'adventure' with my classmates.

It's supposed to be a drama practice in conjunction with the Malaysia's Independence day (I'll blog abt it soon) but somehow the heavens wanted us to change our venue and so, we ended up in the dusty old town again, this time practicing outdoor. (yup, that means no roof and more sun +.+)

p.s: I got my very first Converse - and it's in pink!!! lol

#discussing...

Lunch @ Cool City :D

after about an hour++ of ~~doing nothing~~ practicing, we headed for lunch and at the same time planned to hang out together for a short while, partly because we just completed our PMR trial test. I know it's a phony reason, since the ACTUAL PMR is around the corner. It's really frightening to be honest. Luckily I'm not the kind of person who has Insomnia, if not it will be twice the pressure!

I had no idea why we're so into high places at that moment. Maybe the food has some mind-wave that makes us pathetic or perhaps the sun and the heat just affected our brain, I dare not say. So, the thing is we went up to this place called 'Wisma' something something and it has a 'kinda' attractive rooftop, and we're very determined to go up. o.O The first person who voiced out the idea was our class monitor. Yeap, she is more insane than she looks LOL.

Eventually, up we go to the 3rd floor which is vacant except for one shop. The place alone is dark and eerie but you know teenagers, they name it 'adventure'. I don't blame them cause I myself wanted to explore the place. It's heavy smell triggered our sensory organs and we instantly say 'no'. Yet, another mind-wave came and we discovered a narrow pathway to the parking lot outside and we just follow it like a zombie. Very determined to seek the rooftop, we climbed about 3 fleet of stairs at the parking lot and finally...!!

#1

#2

......It's definitely not a beautiful place but the view from there is beautiful! I can see a small part of Sandakan town all the way to the sea, as far as the eye could see. We stayed there for a little while, knowing that we're not supposed to be there anyway...zzZz.

hahaha..failed jumping shot XD

After that? we headed to a little FOC museum nearby and just feel the air-cond soaking in to our exhausted body. I remember we went into a 'bilik kebal' some sort of vault room and shouted like crazy...WTH...It's the first time we hang out with the 'other gangs' of our class and it really rock my day! hahaha...Guess I should thank God for the sense of humor among humans XD. So sometimes, even though your 'awesomeness' is forbidden and wrong, you need to embrace it and from there you'll know what is the 'right awesomeness' in you, or in others. :)

Garden of Eden

2011-09-22T15:43:00.000+08:00

I remember it was Saturday and I got up at 8 a.m, just to prepare for 'jalan-jalan' haha. It's none other than a great outing and bonding time with your dear friends! This was before the Raya cuti, and I remember we pretty much had a tiny problem in meeting up. Nevertheless, the outing went well when Varrelene finally turned up! Chonna wanted to buy a new pair of jeans so that's why the first two pictures had a boutique background >.<

After that, we took an unplanned visit to 'The Garden of Eden' somewhere in the town.

I tell you, entering this little place is extraordinary! Imagine a busy and dusty place like the town had a peaceful shop like this just for you to quiet your soul and enter in God's presence. The saying of 'Don't Judge A Book By It's Cover' is very right indeed!

All the interesting and spirit-lifting spiritual books they got :)

there were absolutely countless cute things in there, especially biblical verses and spiritual themed decorations .. pictures, DVDs, old school music cassettes (I forget they existed lol) and even music albums. The most attractive thing that caught my eye was the books though, I managed to buy one! *wink

The second I stepped out of that little shop, I was like "where am I?" and then, "Oh, the hot, dusty town again." - sigh.

W Clare and Varrelene

Varrelene & Chonna

I still remember the yam pearl bubble tea I had there. The funny thing is I forget what I ate =.=

from left: Clare, me, Varrelene, Chonna and the photographer is none other than Beverly :P
Peace out :)

Letter to a friend

2011-09-15T19:17:00.001+08:00

Good day earthlings! Here's an essay of mine I wanted to share. It's been quite awhile since I last posted under the tagline 'compositions' so this one is my update :)
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Section A: Guided Writing
Your school celebrated Teacher's day last week. You are writing a letter to a friend to describe this special occasion.

Use the following notes below;
--Activities started at 9 a.m with morning assembly
--speech by principal
--reminded students to study hard and develop good qualities
--show appreciation to our teachers for their hard work
--Head Prefect read out Teacher's day message
--class parties- eating, sang, danced, and played games
--after 12 noon, telematches were played

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32 Blosson Street,

3345, Tokyo,

Japan.

18 August 2011

Dear Benjamin,

Thank you for your letter and I am sorry for the delay in writing. You see, I was busy with the annual Teacher's Day celebration in my school when you wrote, and after that the examinations hit. Now that it's over, I think I would like to share something about this year's Teacher's Day celebration!

It was the yearly Teacher's Day of our school. As it coincided with the 20th anniversary of our school, the principal decided to make a grand occasion. So, on the 9th of August, we arrived early to school to put the finishing touches to the decorations. At exactly 9.00 a.m, the event was started with a morning assembly and a speech by the principal.

He told us the significance of the occasion and reminded students to study hard and to develop good qualities especially for seniors like us. Besides, he also also show appreciation to our teachers for their hard work. Following this, our Head Prefect read out the Teacher's Day message by the honourable Sandakan District Education Officer. It was a spirit-lifting message and it planted an inspiration in me to improve in my studies.

For the rest of the day there were zero lessons. We gathered at the same hall for a concert put up by the Drama Society. There are also awards to be presented to our school teachers! It's such a heavenly moment for them and their smiles brought cheerfulness to us all. Soon, I remember without the book that we had class parties, food stuffing everywhere, lots of singing and dancing, and of course, games!

When it was half past noon, telematches were played outdoor on the field. As seniors, we made sure to make the occasion as light-hearted as we could. It was obvious that the younger members of the school had the most fun. Everywhere was excitement and laughter. It was a one in a million point of life! The funniest thing was to see our principal dancing in the middle of the field with some students!

The last item was a movie. We watched the movie entitled 'Wildchild' and went home with broad smiles on our faces. Enough about the fun we had, tell me about yours batman! Maybe we could plan something fun someday. Call me up okay?

Yours sincerely,

Sherlyn

godtube.com

2011-09-14T19:11:00.006+08:00

Dear readers, I think it's been a long time since I last share a video or two. Most of them was from youtube.com (no doubt). But today, my senior, a good friend of mine shared with me a very good website indeed! I had no idea such web even existed before.

Yap, this pretty much describes what I've been up to. I discovered countless amazing videos here. There ministry videos, music videos, inspirational videos and even comedy videos all specially for Christians! One of the thing I absolutely love is the 'homey' feel I get just by entering this website. I wanted to write more but there are more important things to do...(study for exam tomorrow). Anyway, I also want to share some amazing videos I found breathtaking.Their vocals are indeed a blessing from God! God bless readers! :D

- this is the very first video I clicked 'play' when I visited this site. It brings me tremendous peace and joy..

- this is one of my favourite duet of all, actually my favourite song too. It's indescribable to listen to young children singing out their talents to God! Click play! Let yourself be drown in God's presence and awe. This video below, dear friends is an inspirational video about a little Korean boy with no arms..I was really touched by his story, even though he realizes he had no arms, he still says it's 'fine' :)

-A powerful and eye-opening sermon, mostly to girls :)'The Soul Of Modesty' by CJ Mahaney.

Godtube's mission via Facebook;

Godtube.com is a video sharing platform offering online Christian videos with faith-based, family friendly content. Popular video sections on Godtube include; Christian bands and singers in Christian music videos, Christian comedians and comedy skits, spoofs and parodies in funny videos, cute videos featuring kids and animals, sports videos, Christian news videos and inspirational videos. Be inspired in your walk with Jesus Christ and grow in your knowledge of the Bible with videos highlighting inspirational messages and verses. Start uploading your Christian video, reading and commentating on Bible verses at the online Bible, and posting your prayer requests to the Prayer Wall!

Whatcha waitin for? Head down to http://www.godtube.com now !! Peace everyone :D

Interact Club's Installation Night 2011

2011-09-10T17:16:00.001+08:00

31st of July - Was somehow drawn to attend a special night out with the Interacts. Since this is my first year of attending such Installation night, I decided to go none other than simple and comfortable. Can't remember much though, but pictures are live savers! hahahaha

wore the bracelet my mum gave me :) Same goes to the little purse and the dress.

In a Myvi, on our way to Sanbay Hotel ballroom, w Melsya and Suhana

Leelawathy!! One of the best incoming interact member!

Table no.25 - community table with Leela, my bestie!

Our MC of the night, Jordan and Michelle :)

Yup, this is the ticket and lucky draw number :) (I'm not lucky enough that night though XD)

W Suhana, Mary and Lydia :)

W the hot sisters, Susmini and Susmitha

W Diana and Sin Mei

W Bryan... (I look like a ghost!)

PS : I got on the stage to receive the 'installation' badge for my dear friend Yusheila, who is unable to attend that night. It feels so NOT right to be in someone's spotlight..hahaha. Anyway, many many thanks to those who have guided me on my first time here and spent those quality time with me!
XOXO dears!

Here's a video made by one of the Interact Club member, enjoy :)

Catching up

2011-08-26T00:58:00.001+08:00

Hello readers! How are you?

Obviously, I pushed my blog aside for too long...I abandoned it for 1 month.. 1 MONTH!! I meant to blog, but reality keeps getting in the way and you just feel it is just a waste of time. This is what happens when I am lazy to blog. I read somewhere that FACEBOOK IS KILLING BLOGOSPHERE!!... And I'm not gonna try to deny it :P. I spent probably half of my life going online on Facebook. So now you can say I got bored with Facebook because I miss blogging T__T.

On the other side of the coin, I've been having TOO MUCH of fun outing and joining in events, and since I abandoned my blog for 1 month I barely knew where to start. So now I just want to piece all those memories back in my blog, see what I can remember to put it into words :) Or else, as usual, the pictures will do the talking. Will come back and post soon! Till then, good night earthlings!

Toyota 'New Vois Desirable'

2011-07-30T05:49:00.000+08:00

Good day everyone :) I know I seem like a girl who doesn't like cars (or care about it)...but I mean, this is Vois Desirable! They're having a roadshow in Sandakan, Sabah from 22nd till 24th of July. It wasn't a planned visit anyway, we were just chilling out to Giant Supermarket when we noticed the roadshow on the parking lot.

psst...the 'attraction' hehehe...

RUSH !! the cute one
Performance features summary - VVT-i Engine, MacPherson strut and four-link suspension and A/T gate type shift lever with shift lock

My family discussing about the prices...(it's very VERY VERY expensive) for us at least...lol

Drive a Toyota Home today!!

Camry <3 (sadly the model is not there for us to 'see'.. sob sob)
Performance features summary - VVT-i Engine, 5 Speed AT with Super ECT and sequential transmission and MacPherson struts and dual link independant struts suspensions.

Avanza :) The comfortable one
Performance features summary - VVT-i Engine, MacPherson suspension system, A/T gate type shift lever with shift lock and a turning radius.

Glory with Toyota Vios :D

Toyota Vios, the elegant one.
Performance features summary- VVT-i Engine, Super ECT, speed sensitive power steering, tight turning radius and TRD Sportivo Suspension Kit.

hahhahaha!! Shawn's legs can't reach the paddle!

I never knew cars could be THIS exciting... :D
for more information and MORE CARS, do head on to http://www.toyota.com.my/
~goodbye for now.. XOXO

Yours Truly

2011-07-26T20:17:00.003+08:00

Good day everyone! So I'm bored. and something came across my sleepy mind that I should start a scrap book, at least that's what I called it. I call it 'The Book of Life' because all it's contents would be about the 'true' life I've discovered when I my eyes are opened up to God. In it shall be all the beautiful memories I had serving the Lord with my friends....Nothing excites my heart more than all these bits and pieces of memories. So, I choose to keep them beautifully and specially decorated. The journey begins 2 years ago and it's the community that came together that captivated my heart towards Christian perfection.

It's in pink because Beverly says so XD

The very first Page

Bought some deco's to go along..

I'll be updating again when I finished the first chapter of this 'Book of Life' it would be fun! Hope you have a blessed day! :) Signing out now :P

Sums up my whole week

2011-07-24T16:18:00.002+08:00

Hey earthlings! I apologize for leaving aside my blog for a few days...I've been as busy as a bee recently with SYD-3!! There were loads of events and performances that needs practice such as church choir, bible sharing, ASIPA (Asian Integral Pastoral Approach) Program, and even dancing! These activities just drawn on me altogether at the same time. Being a fickle-minded girl like me makes me feel like I'm having two strings in a bow. I loved to join, but on the other hand is my dear studies...should I just leave them hanging for a moment? After all, it's God's calling. The other part of me cries out because I knew I barely had enough time to REALLY revise before the PMR attacks.

The weirdest thing is, I am majorly lazy and packed with schoolworks but I still can find time to squeeze in those activities I need to attend to. I figure it would be a perfect painkiller to my wounded soul considering how busy I am to even pray.I want to keep going even though I'm in a bad blood. Just when I feel like deserting myself in the corner, shutting myself from the world and sulk 24-7, I found my best friend. You people may be bored reading about my relationship with Jesus again and again anyway, but here I just want to say that He's the best friend I've ever had! I mean to blog about something other than spiritual. However nothing came in mind.

camwhore with Beverly, as usual :P

A prayer was said before our opening dance performance receiving the cross :)

our opening dance at the open space XD

there is the Glorious Cross & Mother Mary Icon :)

So, in the journey towards Confirmation, I buy that this is the plan God has in hand in case I stumble (or maybe it was meant for me to stumble anyway). Engaging myself among others who serve in church ministries brings me tremendous joy that no human words could describe. Of course, the fun is always there! A week earlier before and last week, there were continuous dancing practice as an opening/welcome dance for the receiving the 'Glorious Youth Cross' on 17th of July. I miss that moment so much :( The point in time has come and we had a blast dancing together! There were so many people! Of course, our 'colour' in Sandakan is yellow. I feel like a kindergarden kid again, dancing around with my friends with hair pulled up to a side ponytail. It's a good sunny day and things worked out orderly. And here are some of my friends who joined in the dance! :D ;

Jerome and Jill

Ferdely and Sunday (yes his name is really Sunday) lol

--i'm not in here :(

"Since 2004, SYD or Sabah Youth Day has become an event the church with the youth, for the youth and from the youth. It is the result of the Youth Jubilee Year 2000 whereby the Youth Commission of the diocese of Kota Kinabalu and Keningau Apostolic Youth diocese agreed to hold the youth festival together once in 4 years. The mission of SYD is to make participants aware of the invitation to live in holiness is a call to everyone, courageous witness to Christ both as the leader of the Church or in civil. Currently, the 'Glorious Youth Cross' is in our Sandakan St.Mary's Cathedral for 3 weeks before moving on to St. Martin Church in Telupid." - - http://syd3.blogspot.com

Praise God for a very good day!!!

Skyscraper

2011-07-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

Skies are crying
I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending, like we never had a chance
Do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like i'm made of glass
Like i'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper!

As the smoke clears
I awaken, and untangle you from me
Would it make you, feel better to watch me while I bleed?
All my windows, still are broken
But I'm standing on my feet

Go run, run, run
I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear, yeah
Go run, run, run
Yeah it's a long way down
But I am closer to the clouds up here

Like a skyscraper!

Open our eyes, and let faith arise

2011-07-06T20:59:00.005+08:00

God strengthens me in million ways He could and I may not notice most of them.

Speaking of God, I want to share something with you today. Today is dated 6th of July, 2011. It's a Wednesday and usually on certain Wednesdays, we had Christian Society Movement (CSM) in School, after the lessons. We had a great sharing moment with each other and I felt an urge to share this particular sharing from my dear friend. I'm not really close to her but we got to know each other thanks to CSM.

I can't remember the exact thing that she told but from what I understood, I'll try to recall it back. To start with, she mentioned about having a dream whereby she was spending her time with her friends in a room. They were laughing and having fun when one of them spotted Jesus outside. Of course, all of them had a sudden wave of mind to invite Jesus in, regardless of why Jesus is on earth, fully human. As they were greeting Jesus, they could make out the expression on Jesus's face. It was not a happy one. Jesus looks sad, there were tears streaming down his beautiful face.

Something unforeseen happened within seconds after their encounter with Jesus. "Bang" !!! There were gunshots in the air. 'They' fire their guns, though I actually can't recall was it numerous times or a single shot, Jesus was shot. The worst part of it is the 'shooters'. She described them as wearing robes and turban like Arabic people. Or, at least for me I called it Aladdin hat :D. There were precise explanations connected to our situation., that is being a Christian in our school. I would like to keep that part of the issue confidential.

Following up, she asked God upon arising what does the strange dream really mean. She also added that random dreams would fade away almost abruptly when we awake. Isn't that so? The best part was, God revealed that the anti-Christ is arising and in the dream, 'they' was actually 'shooting' Jesus. Jesus's tears in the dream made a big "PANG" to my heart. While I am busy worrying about other things on this earth, I didn't even realized the changing of our surroundings. As Christians, or in another words, follower of Christ, we must have courage to stand firm for our religion. This does not mean it's for out of the sense of dignity we have for ourselves but let it be an act out of pure love of God.

Hence, let us open our hearts to God. I don't want to see Jesus got shot and fall, neither do you, I believe. Even though it's just a dream. I want to make a silent resolution to forget about the 'feel-good' ways I've been living and start on a more alert, secure one, and at the same time moving forward to what's been planned for me to discover. For God is a loving God, always.

The Power of Silence

2011-07-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

Silence teaches us how to listen, how to develop in us an openness to everyone. Listening guides me into the right position, opening the channel of receptivity. So, for receptivity I must clear myself of all negativity. I stand clean, bare, simple, stripped of artificiality then genuine communication begins.

As I listen, I receive. As I receive, I feel and reflect and gradually move into concentration.

Concentration is when I am completely absorbed in one thought, whether it is peace or love. Where there is love, concentration is natural and steady, like the still candle flame radiating it's aura of light. When the human mind is absorbed in one thought, the person feels resurrected, and the harmony of reconciliation is deeply felt. In this silent link of love, one becomes fully reconciled, not as an intellectual process but as a state of being. I awaken.

In silence, we desire to achieve personal perfection. Personal perfection is accepted as being possible.

When I have to correct someone, I need to remind myself that words will not work but silence based on pure feelings and love will. When I accept the person as he is with love, I will be able to bring about a change in him. I need to remember that the lesser I talk, the deeper peace will be felt.

Cheers everyone! I'm back on road, as steady as I'll ever be. Heading for a seminar from Mr.Hilter Yew tomorrow morning. Sad not joining the 'Larian 1 Malaysia' but somehow happy to be a part of an informative seminar instead of running out there in the sun! hahaha, bye for now readers!

Harvest Festival 2011 - day 1

2011-06-26T15:16:00.016+08:00

I totally forgotten about this post. Poor thing, it sat quietly in my drafts from day to day and it's been a month now lol. So where should I start? Hmmm...this year's semester 1 break is brief to me. Although most of the days are spent walking up and down K.K ,in and out of shopping malls. My mum had a thing for clothes and that's why I pretty much be her loyal follower of the day (well, almost every day).

The life in K.K you probably had in mind when I mentioned about my holiday may not be what you picture it. As a matter of fact, it's located in Penampang, Kampung Bahang. So, it's a kampung ... not a terrace house, not a banglo either. It's a what-I-called solo house that are built by bricks and cement on the ground floor and wood on the first.

KDCA (which was the venue for the Sabah state Kaamatan Festival) were packed with people from all places. The theme for this year's Kaamatan Festival is 'Cultural Understanding - The Way Forward' which, I thought was a wakening call to all new generations.

they had a lot of handicrafts there!

Very shortly after my arrival in K.K, we (Clement's family and mine) went for a Chinese lunch. Man the price was as interesting as the food lol. Nonetheless, I enjoyed my meal and the day goes on with meeting mum. I searched high and low for her at KDCA, which ruined half of my excitement to meet her. It's no wonder especially wit the sun rays on your delicate skin, damaging your skin cells. If I am made of ice, I'll be liquid in no time flat rawr! Turns out she was busy cheering at the tug of war. She bought a new Canon camera though, 105 Ixus babe! Silver in colour (or was it grey?) it's absolutely perfect! We were stuck there from noon till 7 p.m . Had a good walk and cheap food XD.

Overall, it's a very good day for a harvest festival celebration plus my reunion with mum. Gosh I missed her so much I would die that instant. T____T

Love Language

2011-06-26T13:31:00.003+08:00

What each kiss means..

- Kiss on the Forehead: We're cute together .
- Kiss on the Cheek: We're friends.
- Kiss on the Hand: I adore you.
- Kiss on the Neck: I want you, now.
- Kiss on the Shoulder: You're perfect.
- Kiss on the Lips: I LOVE YOU...

What each gesture means...

- Holding Hands: We definitely like each other.
- Holding you tight pressed against each other: I want you.
- Looking into each other's Eyes: I like you, for who you are.
- Playing with Hair: Let's fool around.
- Arms around the Waist: I like you too much to let go.
- Laughing while Kissing: I am completely comfortable with you.

*If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely
in Love WAKAKAKA
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btw, Selena's latest single video is out!! Whooot ! *screaming on the top of my lungs* I like the style in this insane yet unique video :D ;D

\"I felt like the song is a sweet way of saying what every person feels, you know when you're in love with someone. -- For me it's like it's the honeymoon stage..'Love you like a love song' is about that first beginning, that rush.... and it has a fun techno beat to it" - Sel

Don't forget to check out the behind the scenes too! ( Though I personally enjoyed the 'behind the scenes' better than the actual video mainly because it involves too much editing XD )

The peak - my sweet 15

2011-06-24T23:55:00.003+08:00

...cake time!! My favourite time of BIRTHDAYS!

Mine - Black Forest

Joyce's - Chocolate moist cake (very yummy) hehehe

Jez managed to smear a little amount of cream on my face hahaha! They called it 'white mole' XD

Joyce and I goofing out!..hehe
I'm very happy this year! Thank you good God!

Echoes of joy - my sweet 15

2011-06-24T23:17:00.004+08:00

Life goes on even when you're terribly sleepy no? Well, guess what? It's my 15th birthday!! Yikes. I'm already feeling like a grandma. I found out I had a single grey hair, and I started to be a little deaf XD. Eat sleep eat sleep and the next thing you know you'll be in your grave, preparing to meet God lol o.O.

Anyway, the first person who wished me a 'Happy Birthday' this year was, to my astonishment my dear teacher Mr. Lai who used to be my Math and Geography teacher in form 2. I don't expect an early wish, since no one really remember my birthday anyway (sometimes I don't even remember my b'day) =.= not like I'll drop dead on the spot if people forgets in any case.

24th of June, 2011 would be one of the most treasured birthdays I would ever had. The WHOLE day of it. It was packed with interesting and fun events, which in my opinion is a very good idea to be the 'me' I was born to be and 'reborn' in my faith in everything else. My school held a teacher's day celebration today. First impression? *smile till your ears* when you realize it falls on your b'day. Let me explain, when you're a student, a teacher's day celebration is equivalent to no study in school. Therefore the scream. Besides that, we also had a student mass following up the celebration. I joined the choir team though, it was a really blessed day as I pondered about St. John Baptist.

On the basis of the account in Luke, the Catholic calendar placed the feast of John the Baptist on June 24, six months before Christmas (which, I figure is his Birthday as well!) I thank God for His good blessings of me to be born this date. During the homily in student mass, the priest preached that everyone can be like St. John the Baptist, who is brave to stand and speak up for his faith even though he could suffer the consequences of physical harm or death.. Fortitude, one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit was portrayed perfectly by this marvelous Saint.

After the whole craziness, shouts of joy in school and the beautiful homily in mass, it's time to hit on the road bebeh! Joyce, Brian, John, Junior and I went all over Mile 4, wandered aimlessly and purposely walked our way home to enjoy the scenery. First time in my life I ever walked down that highway, looking pretty much insane. I mean, who would ever do that? Crossing highways and all. I bet the people in their cars are gonna say something about us. but I don't care hahahah. Good thing the sun is being kind today. Speaking of sun, I pretty much inspired by a rainbow, in a complete circle, around the sun! It seemed like a halo to me. It's a type of eclipse or something but it's special, special enough to 'creep out' on my birthday.

that's only HALF of the day and I'm already dying of FUN. Finally got something to enjoy with. Tomorrow - 75th Anniversary of the Franciscan Sisters of the Immaculate Conception (FSIC). Yes! Another wonderful event to unfold! *wink wink signing out for now! See you soon!

Letting go takes loves

2011-06-23T23:35:00.001+08:00

pitty. You can say that to me. I might choke on furballs if I only had cats to express my feelings, that way I could kill myself. Honestly, I don't even KNOW what I am feeling. I am moody, being senseless, restless and downhearted on a pretty useless situation. Yet, what I know may be just a small part of the whole situation itself, considering I know nothing but my point of view. Being a girl is a hard thing you know, one moment you're loving him like he's the entire universe and the other you're cursing yourself (or him) for even falling in love with each other. So that eventually leads to being pissy.

When I am losing hope, he came unexpectedly, almost magically and I see him as a blessing from God. You know what goes next, friendship, flirting, relationship, dating,...and you realize there's only two options of the 'end-product' of these. Yes, the 'Marry me' moment or the downhill path. I had a good laugh about it as I think back, the song 'Fifteen' by famous country singer Taylor Swift is 90% true to my life. 'Cause when you're fifteen someone tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them...and when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out'. So true. wth

Believe me or not, I blamed God for many many things. I thanked God for all the good stuffs in my life but it seemed such a mask, trying to be polite to God and all. Jeez. If you notice, in just a few mins it would be my 15th birthday. *SCREAMS* I'm fifteen already?! >> old. =.= Hey seriously it's not old lah people. Embrace your high school days as you'll never get them back. << witty. Even so, it's hard. In case you don't get it, adolescence is the stage of life where you got the first-experiences. E.g first date or even relationship itself. SCARY. Wouldn't be as scary as watching a horror movie by yourself (I'd rather cover my face with my hands all through the movie anyway). But yeah, you'll never know what would unfold ahead of you. Since God works mysteriously.

Hurting is the price of Beauty. And beauty itself is, indeed expensive. Put yourself in my own shoes for a moment, what would you do if your boyfriend asked you for a break from the relationship? I mean, having the time out of your relationship with him right on the dot of time where you needed him the most (after not seeing him for quite a time). What if you missed him so dearly and yet you both didn't contacted for days? He said he wanted space though, and I'm gonna give him just that. I don't know if he still have feelings for me. Perhaps he fall out of love. Thus, I'm not sure if he's ever gonna 'resume' the relationship with me but it's what he need (or want) for the time being. I love him enough to let him go his way. Otherwise I would be such a ninny. It takes love to let go, even for awhile.

Japanese nom nom!

2011-06-23T21:44:00.001+08:00

Sushi! (I love anything to do with Salmon and Tuna the most)

Bento bebeh! Long time no eat, well at least ever since my mum took me to Ichiban Japanese Restaurant back in KL. :O

p.s - dun really know the names of those sushi..or even those delicious bento over there. I'm a girl who just point-to-the-picture-to-order kinda girl. hahaha lame.

Perfect collaboration

2011-06-21T13:57:00.001+08:00

Hello hello Sam Tsui! I super like his youtube videos. He has an awesome voice and such a character! He plays the piano too, which, has been my interest for quite a while. I sure hope someday I could play it. =.=

Samuel "Sam" Tsui is a Chinese American musician and Internet celebrity who rose to fame on YouTube. He is best known for covering and performing songs by popular artists, as well as original medleys and mashups. - wikipedia

His music is in collaboration with dear friend, Kurt Schneider.

Kurt Hugo Schneider is an American film director, producer, singer and songwriter, who is noted for his production of YouTube music videos in collaboration with other musicians. He is best known for his production of music videos for Sam Tsui, especially the musical medley videos in which Tsui appears as a one-man choir, which have garnered both national and international attention from the media - wikipedia

and this is my favourite single from him, 'Don't Want An Ending' <3 <3

Trees That Wood

2011-06-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."

Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."

Finally the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."

After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. When one came to the first tree he said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter" ... and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest.

At the second tree a woodsman said, "This looks like a strong tree, I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to becoming a mighty ship.

When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree so I'll take this one", and he cut it down.

When the first tree arrived at the carpenters, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for. The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.

Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.

Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe. The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said "Peace" and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.

Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets as the people mocked the man who was carrying it. When they came to a stop, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.

The moral of this story is that when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best.

p.s : this has always been my favourite inspirational stories of all. Heard it first time last year but finally got to post it here :D

Make your own pizza!!

2011-06-19T00:09:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone! Over the sem 1 break weekend, we did a little pizza making back at our own kitchen. It was fun to learn and try out new things! In our recipe, the dough was ready-made though. Shop it off from some store. It looks pretty much like this;

It's mini-sized, more or less like the Pizza hut's personal pan.

Got our pepperonis and pineapples!!

Spaghetti sauce and pitted olives both by Western Family brands :)

Mozzarella cheese bebeh! This type of cheese is the one that makes the sticky and elastic sensation. It always excites me when it's time to slice up the pizza!

Green pepper, one of my favorites. Also known as 'bell pepper'.

Glory made her own 'spicy tuna special' she mixed the tuna spread with some chilly or was it sambal? I forget o.O. Anyway, it end up pretty tasty too, what a funny recipe. Hahaha

Time to slice up the pepperonis, sausages and bell pepper. Don't left out the pineapples and olives!

Next step; Fry all pepperoni in a pan and so as all the other mixtures;

After that, heat the dough and spread the toppings on. Base it with spaghetti sauce followed by sausages, onions, olives and pineapples. Save the cheese and pepperoni for last. You would want the cheese to lock the pepperoni into place and give your pizza topping a neat look when they melt. Besides, you could also tell when to get your baking pizza out of the oven with the cheese melting. Oh, and mat your dough with aluminium foil to give your pizza the crisp.

We made 3 mini pizzas.. and I had a marvelous time! why don't you try your own recipe!

The Way I Loved You

2011-06-18T12:23:00.001+08:00

Everything's cool,.It's all gonna be okay..And I know maybe I'll even laugh about it someday, but not today, no.'Cause I don't feel so good, I'm tangled up inside. My heart is on my sleeve. Tomorrow is a mystery to me.

And it might be wonderful, it might be magical, it might be everything I've waited for, a miracle.

But even if I fall in love again with someone new, it could never be the way I loved you.

Letting you go, is making me feel so cold and I've been trying to make believe it doesn't hurt. But that makes it worse..See I'm a wreck inside, my tongue is tied, and my whole body feels so weak. The future may be all I really need..

Like a first love, my one and only true love, wasn't it written all over my face?
I loved you like you loved me, like something pure and holy, like something that could never be replaced.

And it was wonderful, it was magical, it was everything I've waited for, a miracle.
And if I should ever fall in love again with someone new.., it could never be the way,
No it will never be the way
I loved you...

I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.

Box Telephone

2011-06-14T20:05:00.002+08:00

Good day everyone! This is a long-ago post. And it by all means was the second trip to MPS for more information for History folio. Apart from that, we also have some project going on for our bulletin board in class in conjunction with Science and Mathematics month :D

Ies and Des :)

BB and Alene :D

People were passing by and we are a bit shy to take this shot hahaha. sot.

Got to hold the last copy of the Sandakan Founding Day brochure. :P lucky day hehe..

Resumed doing our little group project, the BOX TELEPHONE. We need it as a decoration to fill in our empty bulletin boards which took up the 3D Science and technology theme.

We had a good laugh on how we get those recourses. Well, the box pretty much came from the back of our school, where most recyclable things are placed. Hey, it's the teachers who asked us to use recycle materials hahaha!! I can't think of any other idea we can be more 'recyclable'!

Finishing up the paint on the body of the telephone.

As you can see, the keys are made by gluing kitchen sponge with little cardboard pieces. It's so cute I can't stop pressing them XD.

The handle of the 'public phone' we're working on was contributed by Beverly from her past year's KH wood..lol told you we're sooo resourceful.

Hours went by and finally we got to complete the whole thing! You can assume the handle is wireless, coz we ran out of materials to use on that. hahhahaa!! Nevertheless, our hard work was rewarded with a very good combination of 3D stuffs to put on the bulletin board at the back of our class. Who says you need to BUY stuffs to make your project?

Homemade Milkshake

2011-06-13T20:52:00.001+08:00

A milkshake is a sweet, cold beverage which is made from milk, ice cream or iced milk, and flavorings or sweeteners such as fruit syrup or chocolate sauce. - Wikipedia.

Late night movies, cookies, dimmed lights..all that's missing is a perfect milkshake! We made a simple vanilla milkshake with JGJ, my cousin. All we needed was so simple, you can do it at anytime of the day. There are various of ways to prepare a milkshake, depends on your taste. In our case, we made a simple, fast and easy Vanilla Milkshake.

You'll need ice..

Your preferred ice-cream flavour (we had vanilla)

And a carton of fresh milk..

Hand-blend the above ingredients together in a blender. After that, finish up with the final touch that is, to add any flavour of your preferred ice-cream on top. You can also add some chocolate syrup or strawberries. :D

Clash of Dates

2011-06-11T14:33:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone! Sem 1 break this year was quite an enjoyable time to finally break lose from the firm grip of studies. This year's started out complicated since I got some last minute mingled up dates for my pre-planned activities. Eventually, it sorted out easily with the help of Beverly. Thanks friend!

So, on the 28th of May, we went to Dewan Besar, ILP Sandakan for an amazing seminar called 'Seminar Skor A' which was the largest seminar organiser in Malaysia. They are all over KL, Sabah, Penang, etc.. It costs 10 MYR for registration another 98 MYR for the full course. Their exclusive seminar took on the line 'We Inspire We Guide We Care'. It was an amazingly fun and informative seminar. I put aside all things just to attend it as it's once in a life time experience. I mean, this is real authors of reference books and school text books we got to meet!

The 4 knowledgeable teachers who give away the seminar was all together hilarious. Surprisingly, I feel no tension at all despite the chill of the air-cond that keep making my hair stand. We (Beverly and I) have our 'inside joke of the day' as almost everyone at the seminar talked about Mr. Shiva, who is probably the coolest, spontaneously funniest teacher of all. She use to day-dream about him being our History teacher LOL. I personally think he's the reason why EVERYONE came hahaha!

The course was topped with Bahasa Malaysia. We have Mr. Munsyi Adbul Ghalib Yunus as our lector on this subject. He has experience as Bahasa Malaysia's teacher resource in Selangor state education department. He's also the author of Bahasa Malaysia Form 3 & Form 5 text books.

Next, it's the moment I've been waiting for :D a History lecture from Mr. Shiva Ramana whom I mentioned earlier, an expert on History subject. He's the author of Oxford Fajar Sdn. Bhd. reference book!

Following up is Mathematics, aahh one of my favourites. Lectured by Mr. Gan, who's well known as a top tutor for Add Maths for SPM and answering techniques.

The course was finished with English subject, with Mr. Chandran as our lector, the hall was full of laughter! I still can remember the silly compositions he showed us.hahaha!!

From 9 a.m to 5 p.m time goes by so fast I didn't even realised that the course was over.T___T gonna miss all the teachers from peninsular Malaysia. They really replanted the confidence in me to strive for a better quality in my studies. I wish all PMR candidates out there the best of luck too ;)

Successful Ways To Apologize To Your Girlfriend

2011-06-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

It’s tough to find the right way to apologize to your girlfriend, isn’t it? Have you grown tired of the bickering and shouting, the arguing, punctuated by long periods of the silent treatment? Did you do something wrong? It really doesn’t matter – if she’s upset with you, you’re going to have to apologize. The future of your relationship depends on the quality of your relationship. The quality of your relationship should be enhanced if you follow these guidelines.

Step 1: If it really is your fault, man up and take responsibility.
Admitting that you’re wrong isn’t easy. Your only reasonable first step in making amends is to admit your mistake, if in fact you made one. Part of being a man means taking responsibility for your actions, not making excuses.Â This is the heart of the apology – tell her exactly what you did wrong, and promise that it won’t happen again. Apologizing isn’t complete if you don’t take responsibility for what you did wrong.
Step 2: Don’t make her reaction be the heart of another argument.
You didn’t expect hearts and kisses the second you apologized, did you? Some girls are quicker to forgive and move on than others, and your mistake also will influence how long it takes. It’s hard to apologize, and a girl worth keeping will appreciate that you manned up and did it. Taking responsibility for your actions includes accepting her response.Â When you apologize, you cannot set terms or insist that she accept it automatically. This is an important element of the apology, the followup.
Step 3: Give each other some time and some space.
Pain and resentment in relationships often comes from the things we blurt out without thinking. Thinking things over and calming down at such times can really help a relationship, so do your best to do just that.Â The sort of impetuous things we say when we’re angry often are regrettable when considered in the cold light of day, and so those circumstances should be avoided. Take a walk to let some time pass and tempers cool. Rational thinking can only help both of you.

Step 4: Do something to remind her you love her.
Do something for her that reflects that you put time and thought into it – prepare her favorite dinner, or write her a poem from your heart. The sky’s the limit, really, as long as you take care of all the preparations yourself and what you do really is for her. Nice gifts also will make an impression, but you can’t let them take the place of a special gesture. Whatever gesture or gestures you make, though, must be sincere and reflect your heart. You’ve got to let her know that you really mean your apology and want to be building your future together, and it’s gestures like these that help that to happen. All things considered, failure to make her feel good after you apologize will diminish the value and meaning of the apology.
Step 5: Put it behind you.
The final step of the apology process is to let the issue die as you look forward to a nice future together. Past mistakes have no part in your current relationship. You need to let past mistakes die. Focus on today and tomorrow, not yesterday. You have to be concentrating on enjoying together the life you have now, no the mistakes of the past. When you find yourself having to apologize to your girlfriend, keep these steps in mind. Remember, it’s not unthinkable to make a mistake. When we can learn from our mistakes and put them behind us, then our lives will be better.
Source : http://loveroflove.org/successful-ways-to-apologize-to-your-girlfriend.html

My Love 50

2011-06-04T21:05:00.001+08:00

*clap hands*- original questions from @Edisah Sheen Tomboc via Facebook

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1. Is he good looking??
- he's perfect to me

2. Smart?

- Of course!

3. Age?

- 4x4=?

4. Height?

- Slightly taller than me

5. How about his sense of humor?

- hilarious!! and he knows just the right time to drop the BOMB

6. How about piercings?

- none

7. Accepts you for who you are?

- Yes, that's certainly what I'm looking for and he did!

8. Pink hair?

- not in a million years, he don't even like pink haha

9. Mushy or no?

- sometimes, but he keeps it at a cool stage which is comfortable.

10. Thin or fat?

- moderate

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)

- white

12. Long hair or short hair?

- short, of course

13. Plastic or metal?

- don't geddit

14. Smells good?

- he has his beautiful scent ...

15. Smoker?

- nope

16. Drinker?

- occasionally

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

- funny, we are!

18. Musically inclined?

- totally

19. Plays piano?

- he can play a song or two.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

- hahaha! He's the best in that.

21. Plays violin?

- nope

22. Sings very good

- not very, but he can!

23. Vain?

- o.O

24. With glasses?

- nope

25. With braces?

- nope

26. Shy type?

- he have his moments

27. Rebel or good boy?

- The in-between boy lol joke.

28. Active or passive?

- Active

29. Tight or bomb?

-hehehe..

30. Singer or dancer

- singer

31. Stunner?

- absolutely!

32. Hiphop?

- I don't know, but I'd like to see that!

33. Earrings?

- nope

34. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?

-nope

35. Dimples?

- nope

36. Bookworm?

- not really

37. Mr. love letter?

- Definitely. Although it's not actually a letter as in a paper, every message of his was considered a love letter to me :D

38. Playful?

- That's his thing

39. Flirt?

- only with me?

40. Poem writer?

- my hobby, but no he's not

41. Serious?

- on crucial situations, yes

42. Campus crush?

- naah...

43. Painter?

- don't know, never actually seen anything coming from him

44. Religious?

- yes

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

- in a fun and funny way

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

- not a very high percentage on either sides but totally!!!

47. Speaks 20 languages?

- wow?

48. Loyal or faithful?

- it's kinda the same. right?

49. Good kisser?

- statement : body language comes naturally :D

50. Loves children??

- Certainly!

Caught red-handed

2011-06-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

Good day readers :) I am extremely bored so I figure I would share one of my compositions. I am feeling like typing without any heavy thinking involved so I see this is the easiest way.

It was the kind of thing we'd expect to happen in the dark of night, but it happened in broad daylight. It's just the latest trend in such crimes! Just a fortnight ago, Mr. Rahman was carrying out his duty as a security guard in Taman Mawar. Although it was only 5 in the evening, the area was as quiet as a grave.

As Mr. Rahman patrols the housing area, he came to a narrow street where an abandoned house stood. He thought he heard noises but decided that it was some children playing around. Before he took the turn to the next block, he heard hissing and loud whispers. He knew he smelled a rat.

Silently, he made his way towards the deserted house. He was overwhelmed by curiosity and was bursting with anticipation! A few seconds later, he came across the word 'Jordan' in fresh, red paint on a wall. He kept on walking, trying to be as quiet as he could. Just when he was about to give up, he stood facing 3 youngsters, red-handed. They were spraying paint on the walls of the house, unaware of Mr. Rahman and obviously brave enough to be in such places.

Mr. Rahman knew he needed to act fast, so he called for backup from the police station while keeping an eye on the teenagers. Unfortunately Morgan, who was with the group caught a glimpse of Mr. Rahman! They started to ran as quick as lightning, leaving behind the spray paints without turning back, laughing.

Luck was on Mr.Rahman's side becasue he managed to keep up with those adolescence together with a team of police, just in the nick of time. The 3 adolescence were arrested and charged with trespassing and tagging. Jordan, who admitted to painting his name on a wall was to be charged in juvenile court as he had a screwdriver in his possession, that was believed to be used to open the main door to the house.

Anyway, I'm in K.K right now, goofing out my sem 1 break with my dear cousins, family and friends. Kaamatan Festival at KDCA this year with the theme 'Cultural Understanding - The Way Forward' is such an interesting theme that I am sure inspire us all to dig more and understand the culture of Kadazandusun, especially. Till then, bye for now :D

Regards :)

Something 'Bout Love

2011-05-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

I know, it's an old song but I favor it till now! It just speaks to my heart and the flow of the beat is awesome! Just feeling like posting this cuz this is what I am feeling right now. Somehow drowned in love with the thought of love. I heart David Archuleta! :) view video...

The Power Of God's Love

2011-05-22T21:45:00.006+08:00

Archangel Ariel

Ariel's name means 'Lion or lioness of God' and this archangel is associated with lions and animals. Ariel is involved with healing and protecting nature and that includes the animals, fish and birds, especially the wild ones. Environmentalism. Patron Angel of Wild Animals

Archangel Azrael

Azrael's name means 'Whom God helps'. Azrael's role is primarily to cross people over to heaven at the time of physical death. Azrael comforts people prior to their physical death, ensures they do not suffer during death, and helps them to assimilate on the other side. Call upon Azrael for support and comfort. Grief Counseling. Assists Newly Crossed Over Soul. Compassion, peace, transition and comfort. Patron Angel of the Clergy and Archangel of Death

Archangel Chamuel

Chamuel' name means "He who sees God' or 'He who seeks God'. Chamuel is a powerful healer leader in the angelic hierarchy known as the 'Powers' who protect the world from fearful and lower energies. Call upon Chamuel for comfort, protection, and intervention in world events. Love, tolerance, gratitude. Call upon Chamuel if you need to find items, soulmate, etc... unconditional love and strengthens relationships. Patron Angel of all who love God

Archangel Gabriel

Gabriel's name means 'God is my strength. Gabriel is the Angel of child conception or the process of adopting a child. This archangel also helps anyone whose life purpose involves art or communication. Defender of the Element of Water and of the West. The Angel of resurrection, mercy and peace and benefactor of " messengers". Purity, rebirth, creativity, prophecy, purifying your thoughts, body and emotions.Communication & the Arts. Patron Angel of all who work in the field of communications. postal workers, and clergy.

Archangel Haniel

Haniel's name means 'Glory of God' Haniel helps us to recover lost secrets of natural healing remedies. Haniel also helps us enjoy more grace in our lives. Call upon Haniel to add beauty, harmony, and the company of wonderful friends to your life. Moon energy, clairvoyance and grace

Archangel Jeremiel

Jeremiel's name means 'Mercy of God' In addition to being an archangel of prophetic vision's, Jeremiel helps newly-crossed over souls to review their lives. He helps those still living to take an inventory of their life, to be able to make positive adjustments. Visions, life review and psychic dreams.

Archangel Jophiel

Jophiel's name means 'Beauty of God'. Jophiel helps us to think beautiful thoughts and to therefore create, manifest, and attract more beauty into our lives. Illumination, wisdom and perception. Thoughts of beauty and love. Patron Angel of Artists

Archangel Metatron

Metatron is a fiery, energetic angel who has a special place in his heart for children, especially those who are spiritually gifted. After the Exodus, Metatron led the children of Israel through the wilderness and onto safety. He continues to lead children today, both on earth and in heaven. Unity, education and truth. Children Issues. Owning your own power. Patron Angel of Small Children.

Archangel Michael

Michael's name means 'He who is like God' or 'He who looks like God' His chief function is to rid the earth and its inhabitants of the toxins associated with fear. Michael gives guidance and direction for people who need help or assistance in their life's purpose or career path ... to clarify or to make changes. Defender of the Element of Fire and of the South. Leader of the Archangels, he is the Angel of protection, justice & strength. Protection, courage, power and strength. Archangel Michael gives you protection, and encourages you to make life changes that are required for your spiritual growth.If your space needs clearing call upon Archangel Michael. Patron Angel of Law Enforcement and the Military

Archangel Raguel

Raguel's name means 'Friend of God' His chief role in heaven is to oversee all of the other archangels and angels, to ensure that they're all working together in a harmonious and orderly fashion, according to Divine order and will. If you need help in creating harmony and resolving conflicts, call upon Raguel.

Archangel Raphael

Raphael's name means 'God heals' or 'God has healed' based upon the Hebrew word, Rapha, which means 'doctor' or 'healer' Raphael is a powerful healer of physical bodies, both for humans and animals. Defender of the Element of Air and of the East. He is the Angel of Love, Joy and Laughter, custodian of the Tree of Life and of Healing Powers. He helps you heal your mind, thoughts, body, and soul. Those suffering from addicitions would benefit asking Archangel Raphael for assistance. Patron Angel

of all those in the field of Medicine

Archangel Raziel

Raziel's name means 'secret of God' because he works so closely with God that he knows all of the secrets of the universe, and how it operates. Raziel can help you too understand esoteric material and increase you ability to see, hear, know and feel Divine guidance. Alchemy, divine magic and manifesting. Patron Angel of Law Makers and Lawyers

Archangel Sandalphon

Sandalphon's name means 'brother' in Greek, a reference to his twin brother, the archangel Metatron. The twins are the only archangels in heaven who were originally mortal men. Sandalphon's chief role is to carry human prayers to God, so they may be answered. Patron Angel of music

Archangel Uriel

Uriel's name means 'God is light' 'Gods light' or 'Fire of God' because he illuminates situations and gives prophetic information and warnings. Perhaps because of his connection to Noah, and the weather elements of thunder and lightening, Uriel is considered an archangel who helps us with natural disaster. Call upon archangel Uriel to avert such events, or to heal and recover in their aftermath. Defender of the element of earth and of the north. Angel of nature, visions and instruction and the custodian of prophecy. Peace & ministration, spiritual understanding, students with their test and studies and problem solving. A patron angel of literature and music

Archangel Zadkiel

Zadkiel's name means 'The righteousness of God' Zadkiel can help you hold mercy and compassion towards yourself and others, and let go of judgements and unforgivingness.To forgive yourself or someone else, ask Zadkiel for help. He is the Archangel of

invocation, transformation. Angel of freedom, benevolence, mercy, and the patron Patron Angel of all who forgive.

My favourite archangels would be Archangel Michael, leader of all angels, Archangel Uriel , Archangel Zadkiel and Archangel Chamuel. They play a role so dominant and empowering in my lives that I can see through the beauty of God's love when he created humans and appointed angels for us

The 4 wives

2011-05-20T16:44:00.000+08:00

There was a rich merchant who had 4 wives. He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies. He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much. He's very proud of her and always wanted to show off her to his friends. However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.

He too, loved his 2nd wife. She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant's confidante. Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.

Now, the merchant's 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household. However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.

One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, "Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I'll be alone. How lonely I'll be!"

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.

The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant's heart. The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is so good over here! I'm going to remarry when you die!" The merchant's heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I always turned to you for help and you've always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave." The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.

Then a voice called out : "I'll leave with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The merchant looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, "I should have taken much better care of you while I could have !"

Actually, we all have 4 wives in our lives

a. The 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.

b. Our 3rd wife ? Our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, they all go to others.

c. The 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how close they had been there for us when we're alive, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.

d. The 1st wife is in fact our soul, often neglected in our pursuit of material, wealth and sensual pleasure.

Guess what? It is actually the only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it's a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we're on our deathbed to lament.

The path through the trees

2011-05-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

I enjoyed reading this book as it has very fascinating plot. Each character has their unique characteristics and behavior. More importantly, who is the mysterious boy that appears to be watching the Ontario mansion when Norah Bingham was staying there for Christmas? << Now that was the first thing I wanted to know when I started to read the book.

I learned that the boy's name was Jody. But I had no idea why he's there and what does he want to do with Norah. The suspense built when Becca and Andrew, Norah's cousins arrived to Aunt Caroline's house for Christmas too. Now speaking of Aunt Caroline, she's a very odd elderly woman who doesn't really welcome company and it's obvious through her actions and words that she is hiding something. The puzzle gets trickier when finally Norah met Jody in person, talked to him and saw him with her own eyes. Even though that really did happen, she is not certain if Jody's a real person himself because no one has ever seen him but her. A certain twist of event had piece the whole story together in a more sensible one. Turns out it's a whole complicated family issue that had to be revealed. Therefore, this is a recommended book for teenagers. I don't want to be a spoiler, so I'll leave it to you to look up and read the good book!

Signing out for now.

The point in time

2011-05-19T22:56:00.004+08:00

It's been forever since I had my last dance performance. I hardly remembered how to dance! Okay you may think that I am weird. Well, I still goof out in my room to crazy music, so don't worry. Unlike any other dances, the Sumazau dance is one of the cultural dance that belongs to the Kadazandusun tribe, practically in Sabah, Malaysia. Dee dee (Joyce's pet name) took care of my make up and of we went for a few photo shoots.

The guys with Brother Martin :)

with Jekqwelin

With Clement, Jekqwelin and Cliff

Group photo with Aunt Catherine and Brother Martin. (He said we looked like Air Asia stewardess giving off the welcome-to-Malaysia look) hahahaha

From left : Chonna, me, Jekq, Joyce, Diana and At. Catherine.

'Sumazau' is a ritual dance serves varied functions such as thanksgiving for bountiful paddy planting and harvesting, prayer against evil spirits, honouring the spirits as well as to cure illness.

we visited the little demo house by the open hall and got caught up in playing gongs. hahahaha I don't know how to play it even when I heard their teachings. This is also the moment where I tasted tapai for the first time. Well maybe it would be the last too. *making urgh-i-don't-wanna-remember-it-face lol.

Last pic, with my lovely two new cousins out of nowhere hahaha, if we were actually related at all. Arthur and Junior, HAPPY COUSIN!

Significance

2011-05-14T16:45:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings!! This post was supposed to be up 2 days ago, but something was wrong with blogger.com or Google either way but I managed to got it up again thanks to Google Reader. Sorry for the inconvenience for the broken link previously. :D

'Sherlyn'is rumoured to have been derived from the French "Cherie" meaning, "Darling". Sherlyn and Sherline are just to far removed to be able to say this with certainty. It is more than likely a more recent creation of sounds that sound pleasing to certain people's ears. Recent popularity might be due in part to the Mexican actress that goes by the single name of Sherlyn.

- http://babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com

'Sherlyn' is a somewhat popular first name for women (#2851 out of 4276) but an uncommon surname or last name for all people. (1990 U.S. Census)
-http://www.thinkbabynames.com/
Last year it ranked 542 out of the top 1000 most popular U.S girls names.
-http://www.ourbabynamer.com

Based on our research, most people would imagine a person with the name 'Sherlyn' to be: Tall and slender girl.
-http://www.quickbabynames.com

By choosing the name 'Sherlyn', you might expect that some of your baby's personality could be shaped by its meaning. The history and meaning of the name Sherlyn is very fascinating and interesting. Name Sherlyn is a Girl name. The origin of beautiful and unique baby name Sherlyn is American, although name Sherlyn along with the other American baby names for girls is popular in different regions of the world. Even though name Sherlyn is not in the Top 100 baby names, the name Sherlyn is very beautiful and will make your baby stand out from the crowd.
-http://babynames.fortunebaby.com/

People with this name tend to be balanced, and receptive to cooperation. They are the ideal partner and seek peace. It is important for them to learn how to speak up, or they may be taken advantage of. Sometimes they can get stuck on too many details and have feelings of loneliness.
-http://www.birthvillage.com

November 1, 2009 11:02 AMThe Name: 'Sherlyn''I did not appreciate this name growing up despite how lovely I thought it sounded and despite the countless comments I would get as to how unique it was. The name was so different that one could not buy a personalized cup, pencil or ornament without it getting custom made. As an adult, I have come to love it and am rather proud of my parents for stepping outside the box and naming me that name. I certainly would not change it for any other.'

- http://baby-names.familyeducation.com

'Sherlyn' (American name for “beloved, beautiful”)

-http://www.babyhold.com

'Sherlyn' in French origin : Dear/Beloved

-http://www.babynology.com

I got crazy enough to Google about my name. Turns out there is a couple of definitions for my name. I use to think about it as a weird name most people can't pronouns right. But as time goes on, I found my name rather unique and uncommon though, in Malaysia at least. Conclusion? I'm proud to be 'Sherlyn' thanks to my mum and dad <3 hahaha.!

Twilight in U.D

2011-05-11T00:18:00.004+08:00

Hello readers!! Well, this post is the sequence up from the 'Day 1 @ Ulu Dusun' post :). It's still on the same day but this is after we went back to the retreat centre to have a good bath. I forget to take a pic from the retreat centre rooms though kinda sad now as it's a really good place :'(. Anyways, we went back to the church which is a stone's throw away from the centre for a short practice for our sumazau dance performance.

Bulova Automatic <3 . One of my X'mas present from my mum. It has 10 genuine sapphire crystals!

with Clement...he's literally goofing off with me in the empty supposed-to-be pool. This is probably the only picture I took at the retreat centre before heading to church.lol

back to church :) while the other youths from St. Mary's are going back home after the sales sob sob...wish they could join us overnight here.

dance practice... and a couple of stage adjustments. The stage is kinda small, no offense and someone told me it used to be much narrower. Thank God it is what it is now. We are 5 pairs performing and when we form a straight vertical line, I can't even move at the back. XD Lucky for us we got a second chance to make the adjustments. The next few pictures would be full of...

jumping and..

cheering...!!!

failed attempt hahaha!! Everyone look weird!

now these are my favourite :D :D :D

They look like ninja's hahaahaha

hahaha yellow tongueeeee due to ice-cream ngee.~ Mine is pink :P

Clement Andrew's locker key o.O..

me and Joyce... had nothing to do therefore the pic spam :)

Praising God's beautiful hand work!

"Celebrate the happiness that friends are always giving, make every day a holiday and celebrate just living!"
Amanda Bradley

Am I Really Forgiven?

2011-05-08T17:08:00.002+08:00

I've found an article, more like an advice column that really reflects on my own problems too. So, I would like to share it here :)

p.s- this is not really me, it's someone else's problems that he/she posted to http://www.christianitytoday.com

Q. - Dear Dawson, I need your help. I became a Christian four years ago, and I've tried to live a Christian life. I've messed up a lot, but I've asked God to forgive me every time. And I know he has forgiven me. But lately, it seems like I'm constantly feeling guilty about things I'm not even sure I've done. I want the joy back that I experienced when I first became a Christian. Why do I feel guilty?

A. - You're being honest about a difficult subject. Through weekend conferences and my radio show, I talk to thousands of students every year, and many of them feel the same way you do.

You understand what guilt is, but I don't believe you fully grasp the greatness of God's forgiveness. I want you to understand that when you accepted Jesus Christ as your Savior, God promised he would never stop forgiving you, no matter what you do wrong.

But you don't have to take my word for it. Here's what the Bible says: "If we walk in the light, as he is in the light … the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin. … If we confess our sins, [God] is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:7, 9).

That means God continues to purify us even while we are trying, as you are, to live the Christian life. He does that through the blood of Jesus Christ, the blood that saved you forever when you decided to follow him four years ago.

But you must also remember that while God wants you to know you are forgiven, Satan wants you to feel guilty. Satan, the prince of darkness, knows your feelings of guilt will make you feel like you're separated from God. But this is a lie, and a powerful one because Satan is a masterful liar.

The Bible calls Satan an "accuser" (Revelation 12:10) and the deceiver of the whole world (Revelation 13:14). But while Satan tries to accuse you and make you feel guilty, God declares that you are holy and righteous (Romans 3:22). God said we are completely forgiven because Jesus paid the penalty for our sins when he died on the cross. So when Satan tries to make you think you can never really be forgiven, remember this: Christ's death and resurrection was the ultimate victory over sin and death. Satan lost and God's people won. And that includes you.

"He has reconciled you by Christ's physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation—if you continue in your faith" (Colossians 1:22-23). You see, God has done a truly awesome thing. Because you believe in Christ and have accepted what he did for you, God sees you as completely pure and holy, without any faults.

And finally, I sense that a lot of what you believe about yourself and about God is based on your feelings. But we can't always rely on our feelings; they change all the time. The weather can affect our feelings. What we eat can change our feelings. But God is unchangeable; he's always the same, and his promises always stand, no matter how we're feeling.

So, when you have feelings of guilt when there's no basis for that guilt, go back to the facts. Those facts state that you are loved by God, made completely pure and holy through Jesus Christ, and cleansed by the Heavenly Father. I urge you to bank on those facts.

http://www.christianitytoday.com/iyf/advice/faithdoubt/8c2090.html

Answer by Tim Stafford

p.s this is the movie 'Flywheel' I've been talking about. Watch the trailer below :D

Yet again

2011-05-08T15:43:00.000+08:00

Hello folks. Lame is the word I've been using a lot lately.. I can't think of a suitable intro lol so let's skip that part and look at the listing below *wink wink

1. Fever

2. leads to flu+sore throat

3. Therefore no voice
4. I still haven't done my homeworks
5. I am lazy
6. I lost my favourite pen t__t
7. I still can't contact my mum to wish HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
8. I am sleepy
9. And I have a meeting shortly after this wth
10. My body aches
11. I need new tissue packets o.O
12. PMR is coming SOON and I am still stupid
13. I should stop cursing myself @.@
14. I wanna go watch Flywheel (Christian and true story based drama)
15. But no $$ to buy tickets T__T
16. I feel like banging head on the wall
17. I can't sing!!! No voice let alone speak
18. I got 3rd place in English Day Spelling Bee competition
19. I don't even know how to spell preliminary wtf
20. I have lots of things to blog but I can't seem to put it into words
21. I am googling LAME pictures
22.  I am running out of words to say
23.  I am probably wasting your time
24.  So I think it's 23 things instead of 24 lol

I'm Here

2011-05-08T03:12:00.000+08:00

You've been searching the world to find true love
Looking in all the wrong places
When all of the time you've been blind to love
As plain as the nose on your faces

It's here, it's now.Open your eyes and see it.
Right here, right now. Open your eyes to love.

You've been down on yourself thinking somethings are wrong
Wondering why love has never found you
Don't you know it's been right here all along
If only you'd look around you
It's here, it's now.Open your eyes and see it.
Right here,right now.Open your eyes to love.

Love has been right by your side oh so,close that you could'nt see.
If love could speak it would shout to the sky,
"I've always been here,I always will be."
I'm here,i'm now.Open your eyes and see.
Right here,right now.Open your eyes to love.

Open your eyes.....
Open your mind to love
Open your heart to love.

Deadly Words

2011-05-07T00:42:00.000+08:00